originalzombee

why do i keep running into nazis out here?
i don't understand hate.
its not a feeling i harbor.

the micahs and i just ran in to two members of the "aryian" race.

nothing makes you feel smaller than someone covered in tattoos designed to tell you they hate you, and wish you didn't exist.

when i was 14/15 i got beat up by nazis at smithaven mall on LI.
they choked me, spat on me, and dragged me about 10 yards by my hair.

i feel alone.
i feel scared.

i love my new friends, but this is a level i don't think they can fully understand.
MILLIONS of people like me were murdered in the most Godless ways, just for having a differant faith.
i have family who survied auschwitz.
i have even more family who died there.

i don't get it.
what have i done so wrong?
how have i wronged these people?

two anti semitics came into my work yesterday, bitching to each other in line about "damn jews" and how "the nazis didn't do their job of it"
why?

tonight is the second time in two days that i felt my whole body tremble with fear.

a long enough look at my face and you can see how israeli it is. just pale.
my hands are shaking.
i honestly fear death at the hands of the wrong people if i wander into the wrong place at night.

i don't ever want to wake up in a hospital, face swollen, chunks of my hair and even some scalp ripped out, scared, alone, and half jewish.
a product of hate, and misinformation.

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