ordinary

what gets me... is that people (me included) often need a "life changing" experience (good or bad) to make them realize that life is finite. we are born and we die and we only have so much time inbetween to make of it what we can. what ever you believe in we still only have this physical life to enjoy. sometimes i want to take on the world, and then there are other times that i am so overwhelmed that all i want to do is sleep (how i hide). and then there are the testers, the people, events, whatever that push you along the way. see what you're made of. i just want to be successfully happy, but i'm not really sure what that means.

goal #1: i want to wake up and be ready to enjoy the entire day, not just wake up and feel like "here we go again, lets see if we can make it through"

goal #2: i want to be sure enough of myself to be able to go out and dance (I know this sounds weird, but I really mean it) and not care. I really do like to dance but I am sooo selfconcious of lookin tha fool, that i don't want to dance.

must find sand, sun and water... they will know where to find fun