So, its been over a month since my last post and I wasnt going to update with doom and gloom but fuck it. Its my journal and Ill cry if I want too.

My toe was amputated but the pain is all but gone, even the phantom pain. Thats the good thing, my dizzy spells are back, my hearing in my left ear is diminishing and I may have Meneires disease. I find out more tomorrow I hope. Regardless of whats causing my dizzy spells, it may mark the end of my flying career, if not my military career. Neither of those are tragic. I really want to move home to Ontario BUT if I get a medical pension I may buy a killer RV and go nomad for a few years, I am so tired of Winter so my Arizona, San DIego friends my get awfully tired of me.

I am still waiting to see how much money I get from my toe amputation, I was going to use that money plus the money I get from selling my motorcycle to buy a hearse and fix it up BUT for some reason Karma is kicking my ass and now my basement floor is wet under my laminate flooring. I dont know what will come of it but we got a LOT of snow and if its my foundation or floor leaking it may cost me a fortune.

I know thats a lot of self indulgence given the events of the day in Boston...but thats where my head is. I know we will be following the Boston Marathon attacks at work, so Ill be helping out where ever I can.

All I know for sure is messing with the Irish has never been a good idea for anyone, ever.

Life sucks...hard. I wish I had a gf...or friends...

Anyway...so...how are YOU doin?