I think a trip to Peru is in order. Too bad I'm too fucking broke.
I guess I'm getting over it. I still cry sometimes, but .. I'm at that transition place where if he asked me to be with him again, I'd probably say yes, but only because I'm so alone. If I give it a week or two, I'd probably say no. I think it really is the right thing to do, just I don't want it.
I worked really hard today at the sweatshop. It got a lot of my anger out. Before I went to work, he came to see me, though. We didn't really talk so much. I just asked him why and he said he thought it was best, so we hugged and cried and he left. I was such a mess, so I called Christian (my uber-close guy friend in Peru) and cried to him and he was so sweet to me. I miss him so much.
But I got out of work early. I was invited to go swimming, but really, who wants to hang out with your friends and their boyfriends when you've just broken up? It doesn't help that at work one of them was constantly talking about her boyfriend and how excited she was that he came to see her. Um, great.
It just hurt a little.
I wish it would just thunder and pour.
And I miss my Christian.
Edit: Backstory on Christian:
He used to work with me while he lived here, and he really liked me but I was trying to be loyal to my boy and all. Now he's back in Peru and we confessed our love for each other (cos distance makes it safer?) and I guess we're going to be together when he moves to Boston. I really love this guy and he fits me a lot better than my ex-boy, but I'm still in pain, so I don't want to jump into anything. I guess I've already sort of jumped into it though..
I guess I'm getting over it. I still cry sometimes, but .. I'm at that transition place where if he asked me to be with him again, I'd probably say yes, but only because I'm so alone. If I give it a week or two, I'd probably say no. I think it really is the right thing to do, just I don't want it.
I worked really hard today at the sweatshop. It got a lot of my anger out. Before I went to work, he came to see me, though. We didn't really talk so much. I just asked him why and he said he thought it was best, so we hugged and cried and he left. I was such a mess, so I called Christian (my uber-close guy friend in Peru) and cried to him and he was so sweet to me. I miss him so much.
But I got out of work early. I was invited to go swimming, but really, who wants to hang out with your friends and their boyfriends when you've just broken up? It doesn't help that at work one of them was constantly talking about her boyfriend and how excited she was that he came to see her. Um, great.
It just hurt a little.
I wish it would just thunder and pour.
And I miss my Christian.
Edit: Backstory on Christian:
He used to work with me while he lived here, and he really liked me but I was trying to be loyal to my boy and all. Now he's back in Peru and we confessed our love for each other (cos distance makes it safer?) and I guess we're going to be together when he moves to Boston. I really love this guy and he fits me a lot better than my ex-boy, but I'm still in pain, so I don't want to jump into anything. I guess I've already sort of jumped into it though..
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I hope things work well for you and the Peruvian, but take it slow... Let yourself heal up before you jump into it.
Well, first I'd say to find the best shop in your area. By best, I don't mean cheapest. I mean, who carries the nicest jewelry, who's the cleanest and who has the nicest portfolios.
Indicators of a clean shop:
It generally looks clean. Mopped floors, no dust, do mess, clean stations, it's tidy. Steam, heat and pressure autoclave. Monthly or weekly spore tests. Stainless steel working stations. Seperate room for the autoclave/ultrasonic and other biohazardous shite. All tools & jewelry come out of sealed autoclave bags. Everything must be single use (except stainless equipment).
The barbell you will get will depend on the length of your tongue. (I can't tell you, having never met you or your tongue). It needs to be a little longer than you'd like to accomodate for swelling.
Some piercers pierce top down, others from the bottom to the top. (I personally pierce top down). Some use internally threaded jewelry, others external (I use internal). It really doesn't matter too much.
Aftercare is important. Never use mouthwash with alcohol in it, like Listerine. It kills ALL the bacteria in your mouth (which can lead to thrush), and eats away at healing tissue. Rinse with Oral-B non-alcoholic mouthwash, or there's another brand out there, I can't remember the name, but I'm sure you'd be able to read the labels and find it. Or you can rinse with a sea-salt water combination which you can mix up yourself.
Rinse after you eat anything. Try not to smoke, drink booze, or make out with anyone until you're healed. Check out www.bmezine.com for loads of experiences and pictures. If you have any other questions, email me.
Twwly.xo