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Why is it, going on 9+ months since she told me she didn't love me as she broke off our engagement, that I am still envious of the guy who is going to marry my ex-fiance? I know that she doesn't love me and that she broke my heart in such a way that I am having difficulty putting it back together, but, when I heard through the grapevine that she has taken our idea of getting married on the beach (my original suggestion, for those who are counting) and will be holding her ceremony somewhere in Calfornia, I became awfully jealous of this screenwriter who is going to be her husband. That is supposed to be me standing on the beach near sunset, with my best man, watching MJ come down the aisle. That is supposed to be me saying 'I do'. That is supposed to be me giving her our first kiss as husband and wife.

Bah. I'll get over it, I guess. I have to. Just let me mope and be emo for a bit.