opethfan777

My Thanksgiving weekend was pretty rad. I got to spend the weekend away with good friends that I don't get to see all that often. Hardly slept and gamed pretty much the entire time. My eyes aren't so happy with that, haha. I felt pretty great until I got home. When I realized nothing was here and I got to avoid the empty, lonely life I have 90% of the year, every year. I am beginning to watch my friends all pair off, get married and have families. And I kinda just come home and have no one to talk to. I have hit the recluse wall once again.

I love my friends dearly, and they mean the world to me. But, I kinda just want more but don't really seem to be successful in any regards. I pretty well learned that being single is awesome, after some battles with it. But, the cold bed and lack of female affection is driving me slowly insane at times. I struggle with getting jealous as well. Watching people barely do anything and having women throw themselves at them. While I am lucky to even get a hi from a woman. Honestly, this hasn't bothered me for quite a while and now it hits me like a brick.

This is a stupid rant, I just needed to get it out. I feel completely alone even though I am not. Before I get suggestions to try online dating, just don't. That seems even harder than getting a connection with a woman in real life. Which I can't do either. Blah, I am being a downer. Someone punch me in the face, right meow.