I was filled with such an emptiness this morning I just didn't want to get up. It wasn't the usual less than 6 hours of sleep again it was something different this time. I went to 2 finals today and said goodbye to the punk girl who sat next to me who's starting in school in California in 6 weeks. yeah, we exchanged numbers and addresses and the such, but it's all different now. Tuesday I'll say goodbye to another 2 friends, even though I'll see them too before they go, to Georgia and Philly. I am happy for them but, the real problem is i'm still here in the same town I spent most of my life in and when the vice president of the company, millionaire and prick, of the store where I work in walked through yelling I felt like screaming at him. I felt like quitting. I'm 21 and feel like I'm 40 sometimes. I don't think I was meant to stay in one place for this long. I need to travel more, or just stop going to sleep completely. Meine freund von Osterreich hat nicht schreibe in ein lang seite, und ich sie vermissen. ich will fragen wan ich kann gehen nachmal, von es alles vech.
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