So today's post might be a bit of a long one. I've had a pretty crazy past week, and although there's been some times where I've felt like faceplanting through to Australia, I've also met some incredible gals and discovered quite a lot about myself.
Last Wednesday, I was lucky enough to join @autumnsky, @aislingdee and @kyubiikitsune on a group shoot up in London. It was my first group shoot and I've gotta admit, initially I was pretty overwhelmed by the sheer amount of boobage! Here a boob, there a boob, everywhere a boob...boob. But not only were these girls hawt as fuck, I feel like I've made some great friends too. I was quite anxious about going to start with, as I always tend to explode into a torrent of verbal diarrhoea when meeting new people. But the girls seemed to handle that pretty well, and I had such an amazing evening. Aisling photographed my set, and as usual with her photography, I loved it to bits. I wanted to try and channel in more of my personality into a set, as although I've got the whole cute and innocent thing down, I feel like I'm 10x more of a psychedelic mess in real life. So out came the tie dye and the mandalas and the fairy lights! I honestly can't wait to show you guys, because you can tell how much more relaxed and comfortable in my skin I am in the photos. I think it might be my favourite set ever! Later Aisling cooked us up a huge vegan chill (which I kept calling curry because I was off my tits on wine and I'm a drip), and praise the lord, she ended up making too much, soI got to finish off the rest of the bowl and then lounge out on the sofa with a big, happy belly full of munch. And mega-munch + cuties = a pretty damn good night in my opinion!
On a more somber note, the other night I had my first ever Horrific Hash Experience. Now I'm quite open-minded in my approach to drug use, as many of you know, but this experience was enough to make me never want to touch so much as a berocca again. And it got me thinking about how I live my life, and I realised that there's quite a lot that I would like to do in my short time on this planet, and a lot of people I'd like to share these things with. But more often than not these ideas and dreams get held up by my habits of poor impulse control and lack of moderation, whether it be spending money, going out drinking or any other mad thing you can imagine. And yeah, I know that I'm probably sounding like a total party pooper here, but I'm not saying that alcohol and drugs are evil. I've just realised that with the stress and pressures of the modern day world taking its toll, it's very easy to forget that they are things you should do as a treat, for a special occasion or with friends (if at all- and that's fine too!). So I've decided that I'm going to take a short break from it all and try to wrap my head around what I want from myself and this big, terrifying thing that you call life. Even the coffees are going down the pan for a week or so. And no, it might not change anything at all, but it's worth a try. After all, isn't that the most daring form of self-exploration? Completely unaided yet completely connected to your inner self? We'll see :)
Anyway, deep stuff aside, I leave you all with some behind the scenes pics! <3