The last "fling" I had was about 6 years ago when I was around the age of 21. Haven't legitimately dated anyone since high school. I have this weird shadow following me. I think, when I really break it down, I feel like I couldn't be good enough in a relationship. I recently bought myself a cheap house, I work full time, and I don't feel very motivated to try anything new. I moved from my hometown because I was getting into trouble in Spokane. Now being in the Midwest I feel super out of place. I've gone out to the bars a few times and people treat me like I'm some nerdy "Napoleon Dynamite". I literally feel like what surrounds me will make a partner not want to be with me. I mind how I'm living and I try to be conscious and in the moment but I'm always so sure that other people don't give a shit. IDK I just have to vent.
