So, since my last blog..
I've been doing better! Been exercising more, doing stretching, planks, and situps! Maybe not every day, but, more than I've done in a while! I've noticed a huge difference in the tummy I have getting smaller every week! It makes me so, so happy to finally push myself to better myself and the results have been very pleasing! I'm starting to feel way more confident in myself, and, although my depression is still there, my appearance was a huge part of why it happened, and now that it's being slowly remedied, little by little, I'm loving myself more each and every day. Start with the basics, youknow? It's still going to be a long process before I get to where I want to be (eight+ years is a long time to be sad about yourself!), but, even a little progress over a little amount of time can do so much for your self-esteem, just so long as you continue to motivate yourself to do/be better! What I do is I just think about what I've already accomplished in the day and that doesn't need any more attending to, wonder what the fuck else do I have to do besides work out, and when I come up with nothing, I do what I need to, haha! It's the best time to do it, too, when we all have to stay home. Why not work on yourself? Work on your creativity? Find yourself in new outlets that you never noticed you enjoyed before? I think this pandemic is a curse, of course, but also a blessing in these very finite cases. I would've never done this had this not happened.. I would've never tried to get more creative because I didn't have the time.. I'm sympathetic to those we've lost, but for the people battling depression and anxiety and all the other issues we face day by day, this is a good opportunity to find yourself again. Love yourself again. Be thankful that you're still here. Still breathing. It means a whole lot.
I know that we're in a very chaotic time and everyone is kind of freaking out, but I hope everyone is staying safe, healthy, and taking precautions to continue to be safe/healthy! Illinois has been "shut down" since late March, but the quarantine that was supposed to be lifted on the 7th has been extended until the 30th! My boss is trying to find loopholes to stay open since we're non-essential, because his business will die if it doesn't, but, I'd rather stay home and not work than risk infecting people, or infecting myself.. I hope he comes to his senses soon *rolls eyes* but, I do understand the suffering he's feeling by being closed.. So many people are going to, but, we still need to realize that this is an epidemic that none of us have lived through before, and we need to take the proper precautions to stay safe and stop the spread.. I'd rather be alive than have a job, after all!
All chaos aside, I didn't come here to talk about sad things (even though I did, sorry!). I came to talk about how I shot a few pics today with someone (yes, we took precautions, stayed far away from one another, and didn't even shake hands when we met, and also shot somewhere where there were no other people), and it went well, from the shots he showed me! Not an SG set, but, it still feels really good to be back in the modeling aspect of my life. I missed it so, so much! I'll show you guys a few shots whenever he sends them to me! ^_^
Oh, by the way! I started an onlyfans account! There's already a lot of photos and a couple videos on there for you guys to enjoy until I can get another set shot and published ;D And I will keep adding things at least once or twice a week! And if you haven't already followed me on instagram, please do! I post stories all the time!
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Here's some shots I've taken from my shitty phone camera in my apartment that I liked ^_^
ALSO!!!! I've painted something!! All of my old paints were garbage and hard/expired since they've been neglected for so long, so I had to throw them out and go buy new ones.. Didn't have much since I've been laid off, but, at least I got the basics and tried my best XD
Please tell me you guys have been watching Harvey Birdman: Attorney at Law since it came out on Hulu????! I've always LOVED this show ever since I saw it on adultswim, so when it came to hulu, I immediately binged it!
I'm going to do Peter Potamus next...
"Did you.... Get.... That thing.... I sent yah...??"
LOVE YOU GUYS!
- Oogie
