Do you know what's worse than being an idiot?
Being smart...
I'm smart, and after many years of denying it, I can fully accept that I am one intelligent bitch. The question that results from that realization is, now what? Should I sit around on my ass, and perhaps get a job that requires little or no brain power, and live a nice lazy life? Or should I continue a very challenging road in school, one that strains me intellectually, financially, emotionally, and sometimes physically? Am I going to have to be the smart girl all my life? Can't I just pretend to be a dumb ass and have people do things for me because I claim I can't? That certainly sounds like more fun than what I'm doing....
Being smart...
I'm smart, and after many years of denying it, I can fully accept that I am one intelligent bitch. The question that results from that realization is, now what? Should I sit around on my ass, and perhaps get a job that requires little or no brain power, and live a nice lazy life? Or should I continue a very challenging road in school, one that strains me intellectually, financially, emotionally, and sometimes physically? Am I going to have to be the smart girl all my life? Can't I just pretend to be a dumb ass and have people do things for me because I claim I can't? That certainly sounds like more fun than what I'm doing....
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If one is driven to do, then any prolonged absence from serious thought comes at a hard cost to one's self. On the other hand, if one spends all of one's time doing and it isn't being appreciated or even recognized (e.g., because no-one sees the hard work that went into avoiding a disaster), then Yes, burn-out for greater or lesser periods are not uncommon. Like my therapist put it recently: when you expend your energies helping others, you empty the resevoirs, and you need something to fill those up again... some kind words, to be told how much of a difference you made, a partner/lover who obviously cares... what-ever the fuel is for you, if you aren't getting enough, then it does become very tempting to quit with a "Why am I bothering in face of so much opposition and indifference?!". And sometimes you do have to withdraw for a period and wait for the emotional drains on your life to subside... but in the long run, hiding from yourself doesn't work very well.