Well, the sword was stuck fast. Theres still a chance I could get a phone call that would set everything right, but expecting that to happen would be even more nave than me driving 400 miles to attend an audition based strictly on appearances. I might still be able to net a $26k/year job that would likely be more fun-filled than stress-inducing, and if it happens naturally Id be willing to claw out that meager existence for a while, but mostly Im just sick of it all and ready to do everything in my power to get the hell out.
People always tell me to play the hand youre dealt great advice if everything were properly randomized, but its pretty clear at this point that God is an expert mechanic who never has to pass the button. I really believe Ive seen the Game for what it truly is, and Im reaching that point at which spiteful, futile protest is the only conceivable response. Deal me a royal flush every hand, taunt me with the promise of champagne rooms and arte, and I will still be prepared to fold every card I see from now to infinity and beyond. Fuck playing at all, I say the House is the only winner here, and even that is an empty and arbitrary victory won from straw men crafted solely to lose. If there is no true egress from this casino I would prefer to suffer through these infinite eternities without the pleasure of distraction; if there is no point to any one life save to spread suffering, the only ethical course of action is to seek mercy in the cessation of life. That may be irrationally principled of me, but if were ever going to put an end to this goddamned existence thing we have to start somewhere.
Can anyone recommend a good volcano?
People always tell me to play the hand youre dealt great advice if everything were properly randomized, but its pretty clear at this point that God is an expert mechanic who never has to pass the button. I really believe Ive seen the Game for what it truly is, and Im reaching that point at which spiteful, futile protest is the only conceivable response. Deal me a royal flush every hand, taunt me with the promise of champagne rooms and arte, and I will still be prepared to fold every card I see from now to infinity and beyond. Fuck playing at all, I say the House is the only winner here, and even that is an empty and arbitrary victory won from straw men crafted solely to lose. If there is no true egress from this casino I would prefer to suffer through these infinite eternities without the pleasure of distraction; if there is no point to any one life save to spread suffering, the only ethical course of action is to seek mercy in the cessation of life. That may be irrationally principled of me, but if were ever going to put an end to this goddamned existence thing we have to start somewhere.
Can anyone recommend a good volcano?
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hapworth:
I'm a puss and totally afraid of hacking my ipod's gibson. I know I would fuck it up. I don't even know how to lift a gif. file off a site! No joke! I SUCK at computers.
magilla:
It's just when you get that pissed off that chicks start to dig you, which is good, because Love, my Friend, is the only answer.