onisean

ARG!!!! women confuse me to no end. if i didn't need them so much it would be monk time for Sean. but i'm weak so i do. they bring out the best and the worst in me. they are like fire you know it will burn you if you are not careful, but you still play with it. why can't i find a girl with no drama? am i being punished for being such an ass when i was younger? i do admit i was mean and evil to alot fo people (save my friends and family). am i now paying for that in some way? i have turned over a new leaf and am trying to be a better person. no more crazy endless drinking and drugs no more sleeping around with random girls. and what do i get for it nothing but headaches. i was happier when i was a mean bastard. well kind of. happier in a sense i didn't care . somewhere alone the way i started caring about stuff and it sucks. i don't know if i could go back to the cold hearted man i was, but at times like these i want to. well thats my rant i feel better now that i have typed it out. now i'll go practice with my sword till i can't lift my arms and hopefully i'll pass out into a dreamless sleep. cya later guys hope everyone is doing well