quick update..
well.. i mainly just wanted to say hi. im alive, altho i dont have consistant internet access.. the computer room at my apartment can only be used for two 30 minute blocks a day.. i cant log into this site either.. porn sites are prohibited and i dont feel like arguing with the people that this isnt porn.. i suppose its all left up to interpretation.. however i do type in the url direct to my page and read what you write. so thanks to everyone for their kinds and supportive words. life is crazy. it means alot.
currently.. im trying to get my business organized so i can set appointments with the 'showroom' owners. so.. step one.. organize, step two produce, step three make appointments, step for make presentation, step six.. wait to hear back.. if accepted that brings me to step seven which is.. find out how to come up with the up front money it takes to get into a showroom. i believe around $600.. however.. if in i can assume to make much much more. i need to buy some essential oils.. about $200 worth.. currently thinking of ways to make money. it takes money to make money. im waiting for the answer.. one step at a time is all i can do.
ive been cranky lately.. i kept having dreams Steven was being a jerk to me.. so naturally i would take out my frustration on him.. bah.. luckily he doesnt seem to notice when im being a jerk. of course the man who overlooks or perhaps is oblivous to my occasional moodiness it leaving the country.. end of july.. bah!
my best friend of 13 years is thinking of moving out of state ... possibly country.. this makes me sad.. i feel like im losing my son, my boyfriend, and my best friend all in an instant. i wonder what this means.. i wonder what life has in store. and if she does move.. and if my time with my son is cut into 1/8's .. and when my boyfriend moves.. then what. i noticed some of the first inclines (sp?) of life shifting tension. its coming but id guess i still have a couple months before it shows itself.. i know when its gonna happen really soon cause the tension of emminent change is constant overwhelming. we shall see.. ill let you know.. but still.. even tho i feel sadness more often then id prefer i feel okay. thru the stress, thru the sadness, and even bouts of depression, fear and uncertainty i feel calm.. i feel okay. i am guessing none of this will kill me.. i will live.. and the world will go one.. what more can i ask for then that and of course.. my son to be in good health.. and .. he is. so .. that said.. im okay.. and greatful.
X
Onie
D & Shelly.. love as always. one day i hope to meet you both.
well.. i mainly just wanted to say hi. im alive, altho i dont have consistant internet access.. the computer room at my apartment can only be used for two 30 minute blocks a day.. i cant log into this site either.. porn sites are prohibited and i dont feel like arguing with the people that this isnt porn.. i suppose its all left up to interpretation.. however i do type in the url direct to my page and read what you write. so thanks to everyone for their kinds and supportive words. life is crazy. it means alot.
currently.. im trying to get my business organized so i can set appointments with the 'showroom' owners. so.. step one.. organize, step two produce, step three make appointments, step for make presentation, step six.. wait to hear back.. if accepted that brings me to step seven which is.. find out how to come up with the up front money it takes to get into a showroom. i believe around $600.. however.. if in i can assume to make much much more. i need to buy some essential oils.. about $200 worth.. currently thinking of ways to make money. it takes money to make money. im waiting for the answer.. one step at a time is all i can do.
ive been cranky lately.. i kept having dreams Steven was being a jerk to me.. so naturally i would take out my frustration on him.. bah.. luckily he doesnt seem to notice when im being a jerk. of course the man who overlooks or perhaps is oblivous to my occasional moodiness it leaving the country.. end of july.. bah!
my best friend of 13 years is thinking of moving out of state ... possibly country.. this makes me sad.. i feel like im losing my son, my boyfriend, and my best friend all in an instant. i wonder what this means.. i wonder what life has in store. and if she does move.. and if my time with my son is cut into 1/8's .. and when my boyfriend moves.. then what. i noticed some of the first inclines (sp?) of life shifting tension. its coming but id guess i still have a couple months before it shows itself.. i know when its gonna happen really soon cause the tension of emminent change is constant overwhelming. we shall see.. ill let you know.. but still.. even tho i feel sadness more often then id prefer i feel okay. thru the stress, thru the sadness, and even bouts of depression, fear and uncertainty i feel calm.. i feel okay. i am guessing none of this will kill me.. i will live.. and the world will go one.. what more can i ask for then that and of course.. my son to be in good health.. and .. he is. so .. that said.. im okay.. and greatful.
X
Onie
D & Shelly.. love as always. one day i hope to meet you both.
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shellymc:
come back Onie! 
shellymc:
you are sincerely missed around here