damn it's been a while, sorry about the long period of no updates folks!
things are splendid. i came back to kansas from minneapolis for my dad's surgeries and have spent three months here in lawrence. next week i'm headed back to the city to start school, track, work, and hopefully some photo projects.
i've grown incredibly in the past three months. lawrence isn't a place that i can stay in for too long, yet i'm proud to say that i made the best of it. i got a job as a server and busted ass, working 15 hours a day. started dating someone who is a support system, a best friend, and my partner in crime
. i made the track team and started training intensely. quit smoking the cigarettes. and finally feel like i got my shit together enough to where i'll be okay on my own this time. i've had many falling outs when i switch states, and i'm hoping and praying that this won't be another one. i feel whole for once in my life because i realized many things while i was down here. lawrence is awesome if you want to party and all that, but i don't want to do that anymore. so i delved a little deeper and found people, places, and things that would shed a positive light in my life and keep me going.
and it feels amazing.
i began hypnotherapy and started to learn more about my inner and cosmic self. i have written tons and tons of poetry, some which i performed at the art center in a poetry slam. i've mellowed out quite a bit, but i'm still that bubbly little indian girl who loves to have fun and go out on a limb. i hope that will never change.
it's christmas today and it's been nice and cozy in my parents' abode as the temperature tumbles and we get more snow. it's been a day of contemplation and i feel good about what i've done in my time here. in a week, it's game time. i'll move into the dorms and begin running with the team. i'll continue with hypnotherapy and get acquainted with the city in a different way...more educational and less chaotic. when i had all that free time in minneapolis, i tended to dive for the worst. this time, i've got so much motivation and reliability in myself. i know that i can count on me because i've got everything i need to succeed in myself. and if i really believe it, i can fly. i can do anything.
and i tell you, baby, it's you and only you and no one else.
and i mean it, even when i'm talking to myself.
love to all and happy holidays!
mariya
things are splendid. i came back to kansas from minneapolis for my dad's surgeries and have spent three months here in lawrence. next week i'm headed back to the city to start school, track, work, and hopefully some photo projects.
i've grown incredibly in the past three months. lawrence isn't a place that i can stay in for too long, yet i'm proud to say that i made the best of it. i got a job as a server and busted ass, working 15 hours a day. started dating someone who is a support system, a best friend, and my partner in crime
. i made the track team and started training intensely. quit smoking the cigarettes. and finally feel like i got my shit together enough to where i'll be okay on my own this time. i've had many falling outs when i switch states, and i'm hoping and praying that this won't be another one. i feel whole for once in my life because i realized many things while i was down here. lawrence is awesome if you want to party and all that, but i don't want to do that anymore. so i delved a little deeper and found people, places, and things that would shed a positive light in my life and keep me going.
and it feels amazing.
i began hypnotherapy and started to learn more about my inner and cosmic self. i have written tons and tons of poetry, some which i performed at the art center in a poetry slam. i've mellowed out quite a bit, but i'm still that bubbly little indian girl who loves to have fun and go out on a limb. i hope that will never change.
it's christmas today and it's been nice and cozy in my parents' abode as the temperature tumbles and we get more snow. it's been a day of contemplation and i feel good about what i've done in my time here. in a week, it's game time. i'll move into the dorms and begin running with the team. i'll continue with hypnotherapy and get acquainted with the city in a different way...more educational and less chaotic. when i had all that free time in minneapolis, i tended to dive for the worst. this time, i've got so much motivation and reliability in myself. i know that i can count on me because i've got everything i need to succeed in myself. and if i really believe it, i can fly. i can do anything.
and i tell you, baby, it's you and only you and no one else.
and i mean it, even when i'm talking to myself.
love to all and happy holidays!
mariya
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candycrimson:
I'm interested in hearing about your hypnotherapy and so glad you are back!! Can't wait to meet up! XOXO
candycrimson:
It was so good to see you today, and see you smiling!! Let me know what time you want to meet up!