oh my god it's been so long
i've missed you guys.
a lot has happened...
i got out of treatment yesterday. i made the decision to move to minnesota so now i am living in st. paul. i got a $40,000 scholarship to augsburg college and i can't wait to start in september. i'm living in a sober house with a bunch of sober girls...
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i've missed you guys.
a lot has happened...
i got out of treatment yesterday. i made the decision to move to minnesota so now i am living in st. paul. i got a $40,000 scholarship to augsburg college and i can't wait to start in september. i'm living in a sober house with a bunch of sober girls...
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dreadthis:
Glad to see you're doing ok kid. I was worried about ya for a while.
morlock08:
Wow. Sounds like things are starting to go really well. Congrats. That is great about the scholarship, and also getting out of treatment. And trust me, we will all keep checking for sets. 
The moment of truth.
Right before I take the leap. This Saturday, I am checking into treatment in Minnesota for five months. I can't live like this anymore. I'm not even living.
I am dying.
But I am also dying to live. And I want sobriety more than ever. This time around I have truly hit rock bottom. I am suffocating in my guilt and...
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Right before I take the leap. This Saturday, I am checking into treatment in Minnesota for five months. I can't live like this anymore. I'm not even living.
I am dying.
But I am also dying to live. And I want sobriety more than ever. This time around I have truly hit rock bottom. I am suffocating in my guilt and...
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flashmo:
I hope treatment is going well...
Wishing you Happy Holidays Onida!
Wishing you Happy Holidays Onida!
niobe:
Happy Holidays! 
And I'm grindin' til I'm tired
Cuz They say "You ain't grindin' til you tired
So I'm grindin' with my eyes wide
Looking to find
A way through the day
A light for the night
Dear Lord, done took so many of my people
I'm just wonderin' why you haven't taken my life
Like what the hell am I doing right?
My life
i don't...
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Cuz They say "You ain't grindin' til you tired
So I'm grindin' with my eyes wide
Looking to find
A way through the day
A light for the night
Dear Lord, done took so many of my people
I'm just wonderin' why you haven't taken my life
Like what the hell am I doing right?
My life
i don't...
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hossenfeffah:
Chin up, you are more capable than you realize... look for hope and confidence in every situation!! *hugs*
alfaduetto:
Maybe your not falling, just learning to fly.
just keep slipping away
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flashmo:
Anything I/We can do to help?
dreadthis:
so what's the story morning glory?
today has been a wonderful day. i am blessed.
i got lots done and only smoked three cigarettes. god is on my side.
he never abandoned me, i abandoned him.
love
onida
i got lots done and only smoked three cigarettes. god is on my side.
he never abandoned me, i abandoned him.
love
onida
god damnit.
i relapsed again. another set of track marks, another coin to flip over.
i had to breakup with my boyfriend because i can't stay sober with him.
school starts on thursday.
i'm going to try this again.
try, try again.
love
onida
i relapsed again. another set of track marks, another coin to flip over.
i had to breakup with my boyfriend because i can't stay sober with him.
school starts on thursday.
i'm going to try this again.
try, try again.
love
onida
flashmo:
I hope you can find your way. You never kick an adiction, just learn to live with it, around it, in spite of it.
Where are you going to school?
Where are you going to school?
idgas:
Don't give up and before you can love someone else you need to love yourself. Work on your sobriety and school. Be social but you do not need the pressure of a relationship on top of everything else.
man, today i've been struggling with nightmares about using and they are traumatizing me.
fucking wicked dreams.
this too shall pass, i tell myself. but everyday is exactly the same.
I believe I can see the future
Because I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
Then again, that might have been a dream
I think I used to have...
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fucking wicked dreams.
this too shall pass, i tell myself. but everyday is exactly the same.
I believe I can see the future
Because I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
Then again, that might have been a dream
I think I used to have...
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candycrimson:
Trent really does have the best lyrics. I hope your dreams quiet down quickly.
mrdeeds:
Your not the only one, one love!!!!
Early morning free write.
I'm in a really good mood, probably because I woke up early and can get a lot of stuff done today with two cups of coffee under my belt. I am just sitting here in my room, listening to NIN and writing my mom a belated birthday card.
I got a phone call last night from a kid who was in...
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I'm in a really good mood, probably because I woke up early and can get a lot of stuff done today with two cups of coffee under my belt. I am just sitting here in my room, listening to NIN and writing my mom a belated birthday card.
I got a phone call last night from a kid who was in...
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dreadthis:
hey... congrats on being clean for almost a month. Keep posting these blogs as i'm sure there are a lot of us that read them but only a few that take the time to comment.
suicideking11:
It's great that you're available to help someone who needs it, especially when you've been in that situation yourself. No one knows how to help better than someone who has been there.
I guess I haven't been more active on Suicidegirls blog, so I'm going to make a point to write in here everyday. I got another set up on the hopeful's page, pretty excited to see what happens with it. I got my hair cut today. It's fucking crazy different and I'll get some pictures of it as soon as I can and post them up...
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bitten:
cute pic of you with boxing gloves. 
So school is almost over and summer is almost here. It's been a hell of a year. I feel like reminiscing so that is exactly what I'm going to do. I've got a pretty serious case of senioritis but I'm trying to fight it (yet i'm posting blogs on Suicidegirls :-P)
Prom was on Saturday and I can say it was one of the best...
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Prom was on Saturday and I can say it was one of the best...
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travhinkle:
Sorry I haven't been on that much for a while. Otherwise I would have commented earlier but I'm very happy to see that things are going well for you and that you're staying sober. have a great summer. 
hossenfeffah:
Oh hey, you're right near where I live - Kansas City!! Hope you enjoy your first year of classes here...
Today the rain is falling and I have goosebumps from the cold. My throat is sore and it hurts to swallow, but being sick is not going to keep me down. I'm in a really good mood and just woke up from a nap. I'm going to make some hot green tea in hopes that it will soothe my sickness (it is the elixir of...
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liu:
you are gorgeus
ron4164:
Gorgeous set Onida. You are beautiful sweetie!
Gorgeous set Onida. You are beautiful sweetie!