all i want is to just, for more than a fleeting moment here or there, be happy with who i am and the life that i have.
is that really too much to ask?
apparently so.
is that really too much to ask?
apparently so.
i went on a casino ship with my friends last night. i lost 50 bucks but still had a good time.
i woke up this morning to a toothache. i still have my wisdom teeth and once in a while one of them will get sore. i dunno why. for the greater part of today i've either been in pain or asleep.
this week is...
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i woke up this morning to a toothache. i still have my wisdom teeth and once in a while one of them will get sore. i dunno why. for the greater part of today i've either been in pain or asleep.
this week is...
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actuallynotyou:
Jesus I know the pain the wisdom teeth can be. I had mine out when i was 18 and those first couple days after sucked ass...
The lats time i went anywhere and gambled I lost 50 bucks too. I would have lost a shitload more but I put all my money on red in roulette on the my way out and hit it to break back to close to even. If i hadn't hit that I would have been down 200.
Good luck man.
The lats time i went anywhere and gambled I lost 50 bucks too. I would have lost a shitload more but I put all my money on red in roulette on the my way out and hit it to break back to close to even. If i hadn't hit that I would have been down 200.
Good luck man.
"every day i wander in negative disposition
as i'm bombarded by superlatives
realizing very well that i am not alone
introverted i look to tomorrow for salvation
but i'm thinking altruistically
and a wave of overwhelming doubt
turns me to stone."
as i'm bombarded by superlatives
realizing very well that i am not alone
introverted i look to tomorrow for salvation
but i'm thinking altruistically
and a wave of overwhelming doubt
turns me to stone."
i really want to get a new tattoo today, but i just don't feel like doing anything.
i'm just sitting here, with the dog, vegetating in front of the tv.
i should be doing laundry.
i should be doing a lot of things.
time to get up and get motivated, do something with my day.
i'm just sitting here, with the dog, vegetating in front of the tv.
i should be doing laundry.
i should be doing a lot of things.
time to get up and get motivated, do something with my day.
finch:
any day is a good day to get a tattoo, no matter how you feel 
no....i actually know how you feel. i've been there before. feel better, kay? *hug*
no....i actually know how you feel. i've been there before. feel better, kay? *hug*
stacie:
the friend request thing really threw me yesterday when i first saw it.
Situation fixed! we're now friends
Situation fixed! we're now friends
i'm in a rut.
for the majority of the last couple months i've just been going through the motions. every now and then i step out and do something different, but it's mostly ssdd.
i'm tired of coasting- merely existing, not really living. i need a good way to shake things up, re-charge. i feel like a zombie most of the time.
i'll be taking...
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for the majority of the last couple months i've just been going through the motions. every now and then i step out and do something different, but it's mostly ssdd.
i'm tired of coasting- merely existing, not really living. i need a good way to shake things up, re-charge. i feel like a zombie most of the time.
i'll be taking...
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onesecondmore:
xi'm dumb todayx
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onesecondmore:
xidittox
[Edited on Nov 22, 2003 8:01AM]
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so i drove down to orlando for the alkaline trio show. i didn't enjoy myself at all, really. i found my friend but she was already drunk. i jokingly said something, as we always do with eachother, she didn't like it and she wouldn't talk to me the rest of the night.
i thought we had patched it up today but then another misunderstanding set...
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i thought we had patched it up today but then another misunderstanding set...
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stacie:
orlando is owned by mickey. i think its there to stay
and as i am also, sadly, finding out... maybe the friend wasnt worth it in the first place
and as i am also, sadly, finding out... maybe the friend wasnt worth it in the first place
actuallynotyou:
Orlando is what happenes when you give a strip mall streroids and add a mouse.
Bomb the fucker off the planet.
It my expierence people like that are not worth it. Real friends listen and give you the benifit fo the doubt.
Bomb the fucker off the planet.
It my expierence people like that are not worth it. Real friends listen and give you the benifit fo the doubt.
i guess things are getting better. i can't complain, really. i found out my friends are planning a cruise in january, and the OT i got forced into working this week will cover it. sweet.
i'm going to orlando by-my-fucking-self saturday afternoon to see alkaline trio. that's mainly because i have to work saturday til 4, haul ass home to let the dog out, then...
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i'm going to orlando by-my-fucking-self saturday afternoon to see alkaline trio. that's mainly because i have to work saturday til 4, haul ass home to let the dog out, then...
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stacie:
hahahhaha.. no.. it makes you stronger. TRUST ME on this one. For real.
I dont like to go places by myself either. Im a big baby like that. I was desperately seeking my friend to go to the mall with me tommorrow but to no avail were my phone call or my email. *grump*
I dont like to go places by myself either. Im a big baby like that. I was desperately seeking my friend to go to the mall with me tommorrow but to no avail were my phone call or my email. *grump*
stacie:
Well, we are almost to saturday afternoon. So.. I wish you good times at the show!!!
i loathe being upset for no good reason. just out of nowhere, enraged.
i suppose that really isn't the case. there's a reason, actually many; just not any i want to deal with. there are just so many things wrong right now that my problems seem to sneak up on me when i least expect it, then they drag me to the ground and beat...
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i suppose that really isn't the case. there's a reason, actually many; just not any i want to deal with. there are just so many things wrong right now that my problems seem to sneak up on me when i least expect it, then they drag me to the ground and beat...
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finch:
i know it's tough to do, trust me i really know it's tough to do...but you can do it. *hugs* good luck getting through it, you've got friends out there if you need them.
i'm glad i have the day off tomorrow. life has felt like a perpetual loop lately. same shit, different day. too bad i have to work saturday to get this temporary respite.
not much else is going on. i'm fairly adept at maintaining the status quo. i guess i'm just boring, maybe predictable at best.
not much else is going on. i'm fairly adept at maintaining the status quo. i guess i'm just boring, maybe predictable at best.
finch:
i wish i had the day off...the problem with feeling sick is that even when i do have the day off i don't feel like i do anything at all.
damn sickness...must go away...so i can get tattoo... if it's not gone by next week i'm probably gonna do it anyway.
damn straight i'll post pics!
damn sickness...must go away...so i can get tattoo... if it's not gone by next week i'm probably gonna do it anyway.
damn straight i'll post pics!
went to see the matrix. i guess there are worse ways to waste a couple hours.
i wasn't all that impressed.
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i've realized this week that i'm still not over this girl i used to date. it's a potentially bad situation since she and i are still really good friends and talk to each other daily and see each other all the time.
nothing's...
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i wasn't all that impressed.
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i've realized this week that i'm still not over this girl i used to date. it's a potentially bad situation since she and i are still really good friends and talk to each other daily and see each other all the time.
nothing's...
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