onesecondmore

i just found out that the girl i love more than anyone else is moving away at the end of the year.

my current 'girlfriend' i haven't really seen more than a couple of hours at a time in the last month due to late hours and weekends at work, or so i'm told.

i don't do anything but sit at home most nights, or shoot the shit with the guys.

i'm beginning to panic a little. i don't go out. i don't meet new people. i don't even know where to begin. i'm almost 30. my job sucks and i still haven't gone back to school to finish my degree.

i have so many things i should be doing to better my life and instead i trudge daily through work and then come home and do nothing. i honestly don't know if going out alone is any better than staying home alone.

i'm well aware than so many people have it much worse than i do, but this is my life. i need to make mine as enjoyable as possible. it has to get better than this.

i just wish i knew where to begin.