onesecondmore

this has been one of those stretches where each day tends to blur into the next.

nothing worth noting is going on. life is happening all around me, but its pretty much a SSDD situation at the moment.

i did a bit of thinking and i've realized that this is how i've approached the majority of my life. i honestly have very few vivid memories from my youth through today. sure, there are some that surface from time to time, but if you were to question me on certain events in my life (i.e. where-i-was-when-such-and-such-happened) i'd have no answer or it would take a while to jog my memory.

it's weird. nothing traumatic has happened in my life. i'm not blocking. i just don't have clear memories.

i think it may be because of my tendency to try and remain as unaffected as possible by things, to just put my head down and wade through it.

many times i wish that i had paid more attention. maybe i'd have a lot more to show for the time i've spent on this rock.