this girl rocks the house:
Bully
It has been almost a month since I updated, not that I have had much to say.
I keep putting this picture up, I look rough but my tattoo kicks ass:
It is hot as balls here. In the 90's for like 11 days, supposed to be 100 this weekend. Fuck me. Wearing this uniform and shit sucks ass.
Boring work rant:
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Work is a nightmare which is why I haven't written much lately. About to fight a battle that will probably result in backlash from management but fuck them. They shit on us and expect us to take it. I like to say: You can feed me a shit sandwich and I may eat it because I am starving but I don't have to like it, I don't have to smile and I can complain if I want. Basically 5 supervisors and 4 employees are going to see the project manager and making our opinions known. Not going to be fun.
They treat us like we are in the military but we are not. Those of us who were got out for a reason and to be treated like this sucks. Of course we have uneducated, untrained fuck heads in charge of us. They don't know how to lead or manage so they fall back on the "just shut up and do what I say" they are also very good at "do as I say and not as I do".
I can only take so much shit and I may face some backlash but fuck them. I am here to make money and do some traveling, I would like to finish my contract as it is a lot of money and I want to finish my school, but I can only take so much shit. Enough of this.
Have a day off on Saturday, then night shift Sunday, I am getting out of here and chilling.
Have been getting some miles on my legs when I can. I have to get out the gate early to get riding in. I am also having a Surly Karate Monkey sent over here to do some trail riding. There are no landmines where we ride so I want to MTB. Good stuff. I am fired up about that.
Have felt completely not alive lately. Just a zombie: work, school, workout, rinse, repeat. NO passion, no pain, not much of any emotion. Catharsis "Obsession" keeps running through my head so I leave you with some of the lyrics:
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I'll be your eyes if you won't see, I'll be your heart if you can't feel
Now we'll see who burns the brightest
The brightest of them all
Send me their sons and prodigal daughters
Render up to me their lost and stray
Give lust and life to our dances, flight to our fancies
Give me courage for my passions and my pain
And this will be my art: to feel alive
Break my heart
Sell my body or my soul
Spite their laws
Fight the odds
Smite the gods
Starve myself
Freeze myself
Burn myself
Kill myself Kill myself To feel...
Nail me to you I will ride you like a nightmare
I will drive you past all love or pain or fear
I will escort you to the end
Take me inside you I'll be the master in your mirror
I will drive you until everything else disappears
I'll be with you to the end
Everything you want to feel
Everything you want to taste
don't stop moving, don't stop fighting, don't stop loving, keep living 
But I try to keep things in perspective. Americans really have a lot to be grateful for, and a lot to be proud of. It doesn't cancel the other crap out, of course, but neither does the bad cancel out the good.
Good luck with work. Sometimes one really does just have to walk, though.
And yes, that is a kick-ass tattoo.
nice pics
the devils rejects
for ever