Friday Nov 02, 2007

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you're ugly when you cry
it's what i love about you
convulsing
you will always be my sister
my partner in crime
you've pushed me away
twisted and spiteful
i rebound in utter hatred
letting you go
nothing left
it's what you need
you crave the things i can't deliver
i beat myself into submission
you deserve more
better
your future is calm after the storm
i'm the lightening and i roar in silence
wishing to be the thunder like him
i'll never be that strong
that powerful
but i can ignite even the weakest of trees
don't forget how strong you are, little tree
flourish and grow while you have the chance
.i love you.






Edit: What sort of a fucking asshole makes the love of their life push her best friend away? How come one person gets all the power while the other cowers and obeys? I understand that love is addictive, that it makes us act in odd ways.. but this is lunacy. Relationships are not only about sacrifice and forgiveness, but equality. My parents have been married for a fucking long time now and mum says it's because she and dad are equals. They never talk down to one another and always make decisions together. It's fucked that unfair ultimatums are set and power-trips enforced.


I am Flick's body, shaking with rage.
true_love:
Fear and cowardice, love.

I recently told 3 friends to fuck proper cos they all took my x's side and not 1 was there 4 me. It wasn't a side taking thing yet they still took her side. Fuckin leeches still owe me hundreds and tghey take it as an "Oh well I don't have to pay that now".

Don't doubt yourself. Maintain your integrity. Feel your grief and step forward.
Ciao
true_love:
No probs. Hope you can understand the messy typing & sincere sentiment of maintaining integrity. I find people, myself included, do not wot they feel is right at times of pressure but just create an 'out' regardless of consequence. This experience is ceratainly not a judgement. This experience has me accepting people and their actions as divine lesson encouraging me to open and accept. Especially when it hurts and that is nearly always by those closest. The pain lasts as long as u fight it. letting go cliche's follow... smile

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