ok this sucks
my dads best friend is dying from cancer
he has stopped kemo and has a number of days left to live
tomorrow we are all going down to the old camarillo pond to have a model boat race/ b-b-q
I DONT KNOW HOW TO THINK
this man is more family to me than any real family members, he has always been there
IT MAKES ME SO FUCKIN ANGRY, ITS MY ONLY FEELING RIGHT NOW
why him?
i dont know how to act, this will be my first funeral in over 15 years, since my grandparents died
i mean when i see him tomorrow do i act normal, should i be sad?
I DONT KNOW
FUCK...
i guess there is no easy way to do this
just have fun in the mean time
I SWEAR IM SO ON EDGE LATELY THAT ILL HURT ANYONE WHO JUST LOOKS AT ME FUNNY
my dads best friend is dying from cancer
he has stopped kemo and has a number of days left to live
tomorrow we are all going down to the old camarillo pond to have a model boat race/ b-b-q
I DONT KNOW HOW TO THINK
this man is more family to me than any real family members, he has always been there
IT MAKES ME SO FUCKIN ANGRY, ITS MY ONLY FEELING RIGHT NOW
why him?
i dont know how to act, this will be my first funeral in over 15 years, since my grandparents died
i mean when i see him tomorrow do i act normal, should i be sad?
I DONT KNOW
FUCK...
i guess there is no easy way to do this
just have fun in the mean time
I SWEAR IM SO ON EDGE LATELY THAT ILL HURT ANYONE WHO JUST LOOKS AT ME FUNNY

You don't want your last memories to be weird, and regretful,
of course death is a part of life...yadda yadda yadda
I hope things went well.