omeganightmare

I had a hard time leaving for work this AM. I was doing much better last night didn't have the shitty feeling in my chest, but this morning took alot of talking to myself and convincing. Guess they had a horrible accident yesterday where a guy got both his legs cut off from getting hit by a car, he died. Spent all morning checking my ambulance and cleaning it just in case. Glad I wasn't here for that call, I don't need visuals like that in my head when I'm trying to focus on coming to work. Man I remember when it wasn't hard at all to get in the car and drive. I was talking to my old partner and he told me to remember what I used to tell him. "Just got to go to work for those 2 days so you can get 4 more off". It does help to think of it that way.

I'm listening to J-pop stuff here at work. I hope it inspires me to do some reports. Not feeling it right now, just kinda want to go to bed. Super sleepy today. I realize now that I haven't been eating much here at work. I eat a good lunch, but I tend to skip dinner. I'm usually doing reports or screwing off and forget to eat. I'm pretty sure that's bad. Maybe I'll work on that tonight,

I wish I had more Locke & Key to read. That series is excellent, I think I need to read my new books of DMZ when I get home, Saga is awesome. And I am thinking of rereading Y: The Last Man.

Lots of positive stress right now. That can happen right? I'll be real happy when its all done with so I can focus on the next thing. I want a new vacuum and a love seat...and a bed. That's not to far off but it does seem like it's just out of reach.