omeganightmare

Ugh so I can't seem to work up the guts to ask mom about the details of the accident. The more I'm exposed to the trauma stuff in class the more I wonder about the details of our injuries and whether or not dad died at the scene or at the hospital.

If there is a fatality in the same car that usually means that there is going to be some other significant injuries to the other in it. So I know that mom had a skull fracture and she busted her teeth out on the back of my head....but really other than that I don't know what else was going on.

...If I was sitting in my mothers lap when we made impact I'm pretty sure that I could have hit the dash board and the windshield or the floor. And that is one amazing grip if mom held on to me and I didn't do either....who knows that could have happened.

I don't talk about it with people in class. I think I might have told Liz when we were studying once, but nothing in detail. I guess I really don't have much in details anyways but...

Just not something that comes up I guess. I have told the guys at work about it I think.....not alot of them I guess....well maybe they find out by the word of mouth thing. Idunno.

I've seen strange shit happen, and I'm a firm believer in the faith of luck. Sometimes yah got it, and sometimes it works against you and your fucked...in a bad way. I guess I'm trying to figure it all out so I can make sense of it. Maybe tell people a story that is more complete.

I have no idea how to write anything with any fluidity anymore....think think...write...new paragraph.


anyways, I had lunch with Sara today and it was good. Good sushi and it was good to hang out with her for a little bit.

Ok this sounds horrible, but she smelt so good when I opened the door to let her in. that and she looked really cute. Looks like she'll be moving back down to Hercules soon, so that's good.

Yah I like her, I realize it when I smile when I think about her. I'm dumb and this will pass soon