The last time I wrote a blog after a small UK meet took place I was feeling left out and acted like a bit of a dick. well there seems to be another going on right now but eh I have two things to consider...
a) I'll never be invited to another because of my previous behavior
b) I'm only going to concentrate on the positives in my life, none significant but hey sometimes you just have to appreciate the small things in life.
So where do I begin, I have an indian wedding to attend on Monday... I've not had a day off work in forever, this is the last bank holiday in the UK before christmas (and did you know we UK fiok have the least bank holidays in the whole world?) Anyway I'm wearing the same suit I wore to my brother's wedding a year ago... except I couldn't find the pants I looked everywhere for them, I didn't want to buy a new suit so I took the jacket back to the shop, I was looking for an identical pair, except the shop didn't have anything in my size. So I came home defeated, I decided to order a uit online, express delivery overnight, except my suit jacket was still downstairs, I had another suit jacket in my room, hanging on the door from a different suit I got when I first went job hunting 10 years ago. I decided to take that down from the door to get my jacket size measurements and order my suit, and what was nestled on the door behind this jacket? the DAMN PANTS I so desperately sought the previous 2 days. Crisis averted.
Anyway I don;t really want to go to this wedding, coming from a dysfunctional family who ever really speak to each other, Having this new indian-in-laws side where in asian communities family seems to be a big integral part of things... I just felt like saying 'why d o I have to go, they're your in-laws' but I'm gong anyway because its been a while since I've been a social outcast at any event.
Moving on... is it weird I'm actually enjoying work right now? work is often a chore, a long hard unforgiving slog, I recommend you never take up working for a bank if you can help it, but for some reason I'm liking what I do at the moment. The pay isn't even good, I think its just my role has expanded and the extra responsibilities give me the illusion that what I do might actually be important, and there ain't nothing better than some poor deluded fool thinking his place in the universe matters.
So... I missed my friends birthday it was in July and I fucking forgot about it, I mailed her jokingly the other day to say "i'll make it up to you at christmas" and she responded "fuck that, I want my present now."
I lulled over the next few days pondering what to get her, she seldom drinks so Ros and other drinks were out of the question, and I really oculdn't think of anything else so I just asked her hat she wanted. she asked how much I'd spend and I replied 10 to 20 initially, and then later gave her the max ante of 30.
"ooh me and Nathan are looking to move into a house soon, if you could get us this cutler" and a link was provided. So I did...
Now its weird I've never considered her a close friend, but we've just known each other for the last 8 years, she joined the bank approximately 2 weeks after I did, and we've never worked on the same team but we somehow bonded casually and have remained good but not close friends. That said shes's been my voice of reasoning countless times when I become that cunt with the facebook status's that would get me fired so I suppose in a way I've owed her for ages. my point? its taken 8 years to spend the same amount on a dear friend that I have spent on an (admittedly small number of) people's amazon wishlists, people who i've probably had a total of an hours worth of conversation with if that... I think its time I get my priorities straightened.
a) I'll never be invited to another because of my previous behavior
b) I'm only going to concentrate on the positives in my life, none significant but hey sometimes you just have to appreciate the small things in life.
So where do I begin, I have an indian wedding to attend on Monday... I've not had a day off work in forever, this is the last bank holiday in the UK before christmas (and did you know we UK fiok have the least bank holidays in the whole world?) Anyway I'm wearing the same suit I wore to my brother's wedding a year ago... except I couldn't find the pants I looked everywhere for them, I didn't want to buy a new suit so I took the jacket back to the shop, I was looking for an identical pair, except the shop didn't have anything in my size. So I came home defeated, I decided to order a uit online, express delivery overnight, except my suit jacket was still downstairs, I had another suit jacket in my room, hanging on the door from a different suit I got when I first went job hunting 10 years ago. I decided to take that down from the door to get my jacket size measurements and order my suit, and what was nestled on the door behind this jacket? the DAMN PANTS I so desperately sought the previous 2 days. Crisis averted.
Anyway I don;t really want to go to this wedding, coming from a dysfunctional family who ever really speak to each other, Having this new indian-in-laws side where in asian communities family seems to be a big integral part of things... I just felt like saying 'why d o I have to go, they're your in-laws' but I'm gong anyway because its been a while since I've been a social outcast at any event.
Moving on... is it weird I'm actually enjoying work right now? work is often a chore, a long hard unforgiving slog, I recommend you never take up working for a bank if you can help it, but for some reason I'm liking what I do at the moment. The pay isn't even good, I think its just my role has expanded and the extra responsibilities give me the illusion that what I do might actually be important, and there ain't nothing better than some poor deluded fool thinking his place in the universe matters.
So... I missed my friends birthday it was in July and I fucking forgot about it, I mailed her jokingly the other day to say "i'll make it up to you at christmas" and she responded "fuck that, I want my present now."
I lulled over the next few days pondering what to get her, she seldom drinks so Ros and other drinks were out of the question, and I really oculdn't think of anything else so I just asked her hat she wanted. she asked how much I'd spend and I replied 10 to 20 initially, and then later gave her the max ante of 30.
"ooh me and Nathan are looking to move into a house soon, if you could get us this cutler" and a link was provided. So I did...
Now its weird I've never considered her a close friend, but we've just known each other for the last 8 years, she joined the bank approximately 2 weeks after I did, and we've never worked on the same team but we somehow bonded casually and have remained good but not close friends. That said shes's been my voice of reasoning countless times when I become that cunt with the facebook status's that would get me fired so I suppose in a way I've owed her for ages. my point? its taken 8 years to spend the same amount on a dear friend that I have spent on an (admittedly small number of) people's amazon wishlists, people who i've probably had a total of an hours worth of conversation with if that... I think its time I get my priorities straightened.
I like the longer blog!