I have come to a realization and its a pretty sad one, that the people I work with day in and day out, party with, and trust my life with, people I called friends, actually aren't my friends. Which means that I have none here then. I realized this tonight at work, they don't include me in conversations, they cut me out of ones I'm in, they have parties and dont invite me anymore. I had the idea to have a beach party this coming weekend, I brought it up two weeks ago, no one really listened, then three days ago someone else brought it up and everyone fell in love with the idea. That mixed with everything else ended shit for me, I'm done asking them for things, im done helping them, I'm really gonna be a hermit now, fuckin assholes.