Okay, so I'm a little confused. I can't seem to access my own pictures without going through the Hopefuls section and digging around forever and a half. Oi. It used to be listed in my profile area, what's the deal? T__T
EDIT: nevermind, it's working now. xD
Oh well.
I've been doing okay, working on and off. My complexion is doing slightly better now that I've been a vegan for three months and a veggiesaurus for almost a year. Yay! On the other hand, I've gained weight. I'm 110 pounds now. I know it's not much for a 5'6" frame, but it just looks pudgy to me. :/
My transgenderness is back with a vengeance. I tried to suppress it for the longest time but it never really goes away. I don't think I'll be getting on T or anything, but I am going to buy a new binder to squash my chest down. I want to cut my hair and dress in my fiance's clothes but I need to talk to him about this first. He knows I'm a trannyboi, but I haven't really dressed like one since we started living together. xD
So I've kind of given up on SG to be honest. It's just that .. there are so many other girls here now and the competition is almost impossible to beat. I know I have my positives, but frankly I'm just not the kind of person that can ever make it big here. I don't have tattoos, I don't have exotic piercings. I have pink hair now but it's not really shocking. I don't have big boobs, and I don't have perfect teeth. I hate to say it, but SG has gotten almost mainstream in their models. I rarely EVER see any bigger girls get accepted, even with awesome shots. I guess it could be that it's always been like that. It's very possible that I, myself, have become more "alt" in the things I like and enjoy, and that SG has simply become mainstream *to me*. Although I can't talk, because I'm pretty boring compared to the awsome girls here. =P
Sighhh. I don't know what to do with myself. I might be getting a job at Lowes for real now, which will be nice even though it's kind of scary. I'm going to send in a few model shots to snorgtees.com, and see how that goes.
