oisin

I got to spend my first full day off work at home today. It was nice. My mum got a letter from a friend of dad, who had just found about his death. I came into the kitchen to find my mum weeping along with my sister. I read the letter and cried too. It was very touching. Some one sent a photograph of dad in one of the christmas cards. It was him in his younger years but he was wearing a suit (his first I think) and even then he had is blazer pockets full, a tradition he kept untill he last hung up his blazer. I really miss my father. Sometimes it feels like a little too much to bear and I get sweapt away in a torrent of emotion that genereally leaves me feeling exhausted but a good bit better.

I have decied to give myself a self confidence make over. See the thing is I can be confident but then I think I am being an arsehole. I intend to find a happy medium. I tidyed my room today, (for the first time in 11 months) boy did it need it. I got lots of nice smelly things for myself and have decied that it is my goal in life to smell fucking wonderful untill I die. I got the most amazing compliment today from a girl I truely adore. It really set me thinking about what the fuck I am doing with my life. Why do all the best ones have to be taken?

Ok I am going to go before I tick any more of the blog Clich boxes.

Merry fucking Jingle Bells to all!

Oisin.

Bah Bumhug! hehehe