"This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality.
Embrace this moment. Remember. We are eternal.
All this pain is an illusion."
So yeah that about sums it up. Still no job. I think if I don't get one on the go by the end of the week I shall go postal.
"To swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human."
Where abouts are you, exactly? Could you be doing with relocating?