oisin

I am back, i think. I feel like i have been beaten up under water. I decied to fuck off for the weekend, so I went to a small town called Carlingford. Its a really beautiful place with lots of cool old castles and really old buildings. I ended up getting really drunk with my sister and brother in law who came down with me. I don't know what it is but I feel more and more emotionaly deviod. I have just moved back to my parents from belfast, I had to leave my friends and my girlfriend. Once I had learned my father had cancer my life stopped working properly. I know people deal with this everyday but I still haven't got to the bottom of it. I have reached a point with my existentail quest that I have forgotten the entire journey, does that mean my mission has failed. I am usually such a happy person, i really don't know what is happening. I am a clich one of those arseholes that doesn't believe in God but is still seriously pissed at him.

On another note I want to thank everyone for replying to my last post, I am struggling to think about all the pretty things i need to make but I made a promise and it is one I shall fulfill.

Maybe more later.

Oisin