Why is it I try so hard to fix everything? Ive given this a lot of thought over the past few years..All Ive ever wanted is for the people I know and love to be happy..In reality none of us are ever totally happy..Content, yes..complacent, oh yes...seems like everyone is just treading water and i'm trying to make sure they don't go under....Im needing some kind of break...I just want to get into my car and drive, but have nowhere to go...and that seems to be a growing trend in the story of my life right now..every corner leads to something more overwhelming than the last...I don't ink I will have the strength to go on much longer if I continue down the path I am on now!!! Ive fixed everything that I can humanly fix and it's still not enough...I want to help everyone and help myself at the same time..But all Im really doing is old hat.. giving myself fully to everyone I know and asking nothing in return...it's not that I want people to dote on me, I just want to know that more than the one person who really take the time to read this cares....I just need a good cry!!! Ive taken on so much lately and I am much happier then ever could have been in that respect....but, personally...Im just stretched too thin...Ive lost a great friend, not to death or anything like that...Im still learning so much everyday...but I have t hit this plain, I just feel like Im running in circles...fixing everyone and everything, but myself...and up until now I didn't know I was broken....Im not trying to make this out to be like "poor, poor, pitiful me"...Im just trying to be totally honest for my own sake...
