In my sleep, I turned to reach for someone who was not there.
I dont know where the instinct came from, but it felt so natural to me.
For quite a while now I have suppressed this feeling.
I can no long hold in the yearning to be held, as I lay awake.
To watch someone while they are sleeping and to know that they...
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I dont know where the instinct came from, but it felt so natural to me.
For quite a while now I have suppressed this feeling.
I can no long hold in the yearning to be held, as I lay awake.
To watch someone while they are sleeping and to know that they...
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devilman40k:
Awww sweet thing don't worry. I know what that feeling is like, it comes and goes but it will pass. Meen while keep ya head up. 
i've been fired!
that's right, the band i busted my ass managing fired me..i'm not very happy about the whole thing..they were getting some attention from a label and desided they didn't need me anymore...funny thing is they aren't getting nearly as many shows like when i was with them..i don't think they will get signed anyway...they aren't main stream radio material, which is fine...
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that's right, the band i busted my ass managing fired me..i'm not very happy about the whole thing..they were getting some attention from a label and desided they didn't need me anymore...funny thing is they aren't getting nearly as many shows like when i was with them..i don't think they will get signed anyway...they aren't main stream radio material, which is fine...
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lotuspod81:
Thats shitty. They deserve to not be signed if oyu helped them achieve something then they hate on you.
rabbiofrock:
that sux.... sorry.
First address of the year~
Ive come to the conclusion that I was not who I had hoped I would be in 2004. Well that is all going to change now! Its a whole new year and things are going to change in Belles world!
Im not taking shit from anyone from now on. If you are my friend and you dont want to make...
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Ive come to the conclusion that I was not who I had hoped I would be in 2004. Well that is all going to change now! Its a whole new year and things are going to change in Belles world!
Im not taking shit from anyone from now on. If you are my friend and you dont want to make...
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lotuspod81:
Glad to see you have returned to the site.
devilman40k:
I'm happy your back . Thats right don't take no body's shit!
. Thats right don't take no body's shit! A New Day
As my eyes opened this morning I felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude, happiness and well-being. A new appreciation for life, love and compassion towards everything that exists in my life, which includes my family, friends, work and the world around me. It was like seeing everything through the eyes of a child for the first time and I wanted to extend...
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As my eyes opened this morning I felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude, happiness and well-being. A new appreciation for life, love and compassion towards everything that exists in my life, which includes my family, friends, work and the world around me. It was like seeing everything through the eyes of a child for the first time and I wanted to extend...
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punknitemike:
have a good time bringing in 2005 tonight, you got big plans?
u coming???
u coming???
nothing really going on...x-mas sucked!!! but at least that is over.... 
Belle+Eighth grade girls= Headache
Current mood: drained
How do I get suckered into things??
I have been pulled into yet another one of my little sisters great ideaslast night I walked 3 miles Christmas caroling with 8 eighth grade girls.letss just say I am not doing anything like that again for a while
Current mood: drained
How do I get suckered into things??
I have been pulled into yet another one of my little sisters great ideaslast night I walked 3 miles Christmas caroling with 8 eighth grade girls.letss just say I am not doing anything like that again for a while
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lotuspod81:
You have more patience then I do. But it was nice now you will throw snowballs at the carolers. hahahha
devilman40k:
Merry Christmas!!
good times good times...will write more later kiddies
devilman40k:
Hopefully it's some cheerfull news
Note to self~
Current mood: morose
DO NOT out yourself on the line anymore!!! it only backfires in your face!!!! or you get a huge blow to the ego....not a good time!!!
Currently listening:
American Psycho
By Misfits
Release date: By 13 May, 1997
Current mood: morose
DO NOT out yourself on the line anymore!!! it only backfires in your face!!!! or you get a huge blow to the ego....not a good time!!!
Currently listening:
American Psycho
By Misfits
Release date: By 13 May, 1997
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devilman40k:
Aw sweety don't feel bad. Just don't ever give up. Like babys fall when they try to learn to walk but they get back up. Fear is learned so just keep trying. I'm the same way though i never talk to girls i talk but i never hit on the to nervous 
lotuspod81:
Hope it is better now. Have a good holiday season
Have a good holiday seasonwork is kicking my ass right now!! Sunday 8am-Wednesday 11pm, is far too much for one gurl to handle...I know it's a good job, and I feel great when I get off and I know that I've made those days good for people...But, 2 mentally retarded adult males can be taxing on the mind, let alone the body! I do things i never thought i...
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lotuspod81:
A great classic. 
devilman40k:
so you work in a retirement home?
something someone sent to me......
Current mood: awake
this is not the world i came in to. hoping to live a happy life has gone to shame and yet there is only one to blame you look into the mirror and fear that the face you see is not the same one as me but you dont so long as i dont stare you walk...
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Current mood: awake
this is not the world i came in to. hoping to live a happy life has gone to shame and yet there is only one to blame you look into the mirror and fear that the face you see is not the same one as me but you dont so long as i dont stare you walk...
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devilman40k:
I feel the same way all the time. I just know that to find my happiness is to suffer. Burn away the weakness of this world and be rebuilt as a stone pillar against the world.
Monster squad!! The wolf man has nads!
Monster squad!! The wolf man has nads!
rabbiofrock:
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my producer lotuspod81 and i were JUST talking about that flick today!!!! damn....
and know that the flip side of the equation is that either the pain drives you insane, or you come to OWN the pain and make it yours and make it your own strength... and with THAT you then go out and kick the world's fucking ass!!!!
my producer lotuspod81 and i were JUST talking about that flick today!!!! damn....
and know that the flip side of the equation is that either the pain drives you insane, or you come to OWN the pain and make it yours and make it your own strength... and with THAT you then go out and kick the world's fucking ass!!!!
HoliDayton!!! be there
December 4th - 8pm
Dayton , OH - Elbos
HOLIDAYTON - Independent Music Festival
the Story Changes
with: Wet Leather, Brownfield (ex Stoics), Seven Inch Stilettos (ex Mondolux), Ed vs Radio, Joe Anderl, Nathan Peters (of Captain of the Industry), Tim Prichard (of Flyaway Minion), Matt Shetler (of Simply Waiting), Tom Foolery and the Mistakes
come out and support you're local music!!!
December 4th - 8pm
Dayton , OH - Elbos
HOLIDAYTON - Independent Music Festival
the Story Changes
with: Wet Leather, Brownfield (ex Stoics), Seven Inch Stilettos (ex Mondolux), Ed vs Radio, Joe Anderl, Nathan Peters (of Captain of the Industry), Tim Prichard (of Flyaway Minion), Matt Shetler (of Simply Waiting), Tom Foolery and the Mistakes
come out and support you're local music!!!
punknitemike:
i'll be in troy for the LEGBONE show!!!
devilman40k:
The last concert i went to was my senior year of high school i saw Pantera in Chicago. That was like 3 years ago. 