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I started school last night, and it was awesome. I won't lie...towards the end of my work day I was starting to question whether or not I was making a mistake, and I almost drove home to get online and withdraw from classes. My panic issues were rearing their ugly head. I actually texted my dad at one point and said "Eeep! I'm scared...can't breathe". And he responded with "What the hell are you doing? Get to class!". So, I sucked it up and went to main campus and went to class. Plus, let's be honest here, I need to get the hell out of my house and away from the internet. School will help that. Haha.

On a serious note, I feel like I have something to prove to myself this time around. The first time I tried college, I spent way too much time worrying about how I was going to afford beer (or even just aquire, if it was while I was underage), who I was going out with that night, who I was going home with that night, and how many classes I could sleep through and still pass. I honestly think I needed the past few years that I took off. First, because I grew up A LOT in that time, and also because it gave me an opportunity to figure out where I want to be and what I need to work towards. I put a lot of pressure on myself sometimes...but that's why I tend to succeed. Plus, I NEED to do well. If I don't, the university will no longer pay for my schooling and I will end up owing them money that I don't have. Yay for added pressure!

I only have 2 classes, a history GEC and Business Finance. I have no doubt that history will be a breeze. The instructor was actually really interesting and he seemed like he could make me want to learn about history. Although, I have "that asshat" in my class that everyone dreads. The one who has to make his opinion known every 42 seconds. Last night, on the first day of class, it was already "I think the 30 Year War is similar to the current situation in Iraq...blah, blah, blah" (I stopped listening). Business Finance could be a challenge for me. The first time around, I was a music major in college...so I didn't have to take a math. It's been about...7 years since I've taken a math class, and we swung right into insane equations dealing with profit, revenue, and total cost last night. Eek! My instructor = HOT!, by the way. I would totally blow him for an A...hell, who am I kidding...I would blow him if he failed me because I have an instructor-student fantasy. And I am 95% sure he had a chubby when he came into class last night. Yes, I was looking. I love hot dorks. However, he loses hotness points for giving us about 100 homework problems to do. Gross. Anywho, on my lunch break today I will have to go pick up the last of my books and some other stuff. *sigh* My only 2 complaints are that I have insanely long Mondays and Wednesdays now (7:30am-9:18pm), and the fact that I remembered how much I hate walking around campus at night, in the dark. Time to dig out the mace again and start carrying that around...OR I could convince a cute guy in one of my classes to start walking with me.

I was supposed to have a dentist's appointment tomorrow morning, which I just cancelled because I am tired of people poking around in my face. In May I had gum surgery, in July I had a crazy infection caused by evil wisdom teeth, in August I had my wisdom teeth removed. You know...at this point I just really don't care if they rot out of my head. I will be a great big baby and say "I hate the dentist!".

I am considering going home early today. I need to get some stuff done before this weekend, plus I am sure I will end up spending an hour in the bookstore because the lines will be nutty. *meh* I always say that. Haha. I am sure I will end up sitting right here until 5pm.