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Well we finally did it....we kicked the singer out of my band....it didnt feel as good as I thought it would....i actualy felt kinda sick....It was almost like breaking up with someone youve been with for a long time and you dont want too you just know the realtionship is unhealthy.....He didnt take it so well....I still feel shitty about it....but it had to be done....I had to work with him today, my whole band works in the same restaurant (sometimes i think without the foodservice industry ther'd be a lot more homeless musicians) It wasnt too bad I still fealt shitty..... Now I'm sitting here trying to write an appeal to get myself back into school....after 2 years of being out.....My mind is a complete blank and I feel like putting my fist in my face.....So somehow I find myself here babling at a bunch of strangers....somehow it makes me feel a little better......I think Ill drink some wine ok maybe a bottle.....maybe write a song..........Or break something....God I feal like a tool............I need a cigarette......and some more coffee..........................................