Billie holliday is Playing in the background and me and my husband are playing Cards and I am beating his ass as always becaus I am a godess at cardgames, and thats when it hits me I'm really happy right now in this moment right here I am happy no dark thaugts no fear no anxiety...just happy and calm.
Whay it's so hard fore me to finde moments like this I don't know but maybe one day it won't be like that maybe one day I can feel this calm on a regular basis. And I have come to terms with tje fact that I am sensetiv to the world arownd me I can't ignor the way the world is or how mutch sufering their is but I have learnt to live with it to be in it and I work on it all the time. And I gess my work helps me some I get to make a diffrens for some and I can contribut to making the sufering a little less for some of the people I meet. That thaugt comforts me.
Sleep thight XOXO
~ Ofelia