octomocto

im starting to figure out that i should just be alone forever, maybe its because im reading henry rollins but i think ive known this already. ive had a lot of time to think latly. i have a long drive to work every day and my car's cd player got stolen about a week ago, my boombox ran out of bateries 2 days ago and i cant afford more so i have the sound of wind to listen to and it makes me think to pass the time, today i took earplugs from work and listened to my self breath, swallow and smoke to cure my bordom, anyway i dont think i have any chance of a solid relationship i have trained myself to find flaws and hone in on them. these are small things that i find anoying with people and start to hate and eventually its all i recognize in that person. im not iven talking about girls anymore its everyone, i think with girlfriends it just grows faster because i see them and talk with them more often. or maybe im lying