octoberallover

geez.. I had a horrible week last week... my whole family caught the same virus.. which resulted in a horrible bout of gastroeniritis (sp?) for us all..... my older son was probably hit the hardest and longest by it... when the symptoms came up it was pretty sudden and pretty violent.... my younger son never really seemed affected by it he was lethargic for maybe a couple of hours with very sporadic vomitting over the week but he just kind of toddled around happily still and proved himself pretty much tougher than the rest of us.....I had it second worst but for probably the shortest amount of time... it was pretty much just one day and one night... one HORRIBLE FUCKING DAY and night but I was pretty much fine after that.....and Michaella never got it at all.... she gets everything usually but not this time.... so that worked out pretty well....

I missed the Velvet Teen last night... I really should have gone... all signs were pointing to yes on that one... actually all signs not coming from my wallet or my bank were because those sources were firmly against it... so thats what I went with... I didn't go......

I've seen the Bound Stems, Magnolia Electric Co., and had a nice night out on Halloween weekend so I guess I don't have to go out and catch everything.... I also regret missing Beirut though and I'm probably going to end up missing the Twilight Singers too.....

I played Bully and finished it in less than a week.... it was really fun ... but something that short and that easy might not have been worth the $50 or $40 dollars or however much I paid for it..... so its back to Scarface for me... that game is INSANELY hard.... and I better get these other games in before the new Tony Hawk comes out... its probably all over when that happens.....

I wanna get out and see people..... I don't know how well I would get along with SGNM.... not that I've really tried.... I just get such bad social anxiety and having a family and a few friends kind of gives me just enough not to HAVE to go out and meet new people even though I'd like to.....I just don't want to be thought of as creepy just because I don't really know what to say or how to start conversations......and I don't know where to start really... every event seems to be a party for someone everyone already knows consisting of people who all know each other pretty well......but, you know.... it'd be worth a try.... maybe one of these days......

these things were better when I was in a band and I could just invite people to shows... that gives you an immediate topic of conversation.... a good starting off "how'd you like the show?".... without that kind of thing I feel totally handicapped... like I'm just putting myself out there and hoping for the best.... but I guess thats how other people do it... I just need to get used to it and go out and be around more...

whine whine moan moan, right?.... well its not like anyone reads this anyway

and beside that I have a pretty cool life and a nice family.... its not like I take that for granted.... I guess I just want to go out and be around people while I'm still relatively young... be part of a community and all that.... be around other artists... even if a persons art is just the way they choose to live their lives