Wednesday Dec 10, 2003

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Would it be bad if I went to see Explosions in the Sky tonight instead of working on my final paper? I have already been promised an extension if I ask for one, and I would really like to see these guys live.

It's not so bad if I keep procrastinating, right? confused
hati:
Unreal how many Portland people there are on this site. Even more surprising how their profiles don't entirely freak me out. Is it sad that the first thing that occurred to me when I heard you might go to "Explosions in the Sky," was if it that's a Laser Light show at OMSI?
dialect:
Pretentious, i have the same difficulty, to talk on art (among other subjects) without sounding like a pompous fool is an intellectual 'holy grail' for me. Perhaps it should go in my fantasy, then again yours sounds more fun .. Me - talking 'street' about Bernini .. You - lost in pleasure.

It is amazing how many people from Portland there are up here, i think i am going out this spring to see my step-sister, i hear there are lots of record shops (i like them), rain (im used to that) and alternative people (i like them too) so i should fit in.

Tuesday Dec 09, 2003

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Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! I hate stupid requirement classes that are going to screw me over. Damn it! My physics prof decided that we needed to have a lab and a problem set this week, even though the last half of it is supposed to be reading week. Adn I slpet in today becasue there was a warm boy in my bed and...
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dialect:
I'm no philosopher, art historian is me, but it turns out im quite shoddy at it, does get my interest going on occasion but these journal entries arent the best way of interfacing ideas (horrible overused buzzword phrase).

Quite odd that i randomly clicked your profile to see an interesting entry .. and you like infected mushroom one of the most underrated trance groups around, i dont go often to trance nights but i went to see them at the British Museum in London. It was the launch party for an ice sculptor and they played (all nice live juicy synths) with smoke, lasers, ice and trance they put on an amazing show, plus you got to rave in a museum, all clever and stuff.
scylla:
physics 101, when not spoonfed to me, i have decided, is silly and evil. tongue

Monday Dec 08, 2003

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The idea of the simulacrum. Reality as a copy of a copy of a copy of a copy etc. with no referent. Images of ideology serving as the foundation for reality. Existence in the hyperreal=Existence in a late capitalist society. The boundaies between real and imaginary, true and false permeated from both sides to where binary thought breaks down(? need to finsih the book before...
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littledeadkid:
wow!
skull skull
dialect:
I'm not that familiar with that work, but its an argument that seems be in the aesthetical sense an updated version of Plato's writings on representation in the republic. I would be interested into how he defines binary thought, could be seen as an oxymoron by some smile.

Interesting project on Japan and the US, if my guess that you speak in a modern context is right, I see your angle. Im thinking of exploring the east/west divide (or transient unity as your paper may suggest) through looking at canonised paintings from both China and Italy in the late Ming dynasty (when trade started to flow). This leads to hilarious consequences as the two chums (sometimes bitter enemies) struggle to adapt each others perspective systems and debate ensues. Oscar: Best Adapted Screenplay .. thank you


Hmmm i can win an Oscar but i can't make the text fill the box, its the little things ...

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Monday Dec 08, 2003

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Sometimes I really hate the internet.
cubistic:
And sometimes I really hate me, but this time at least I have a reason.

Sunday Dec 07, 2003

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So, getting little sleep and having lots of sex makes me feel very stoned. I've been walking around in a daze all day, not really knowing what's going on, and I can't stay awake to study. Eating a lot isn't helping either.

I hope that all goes well with me sleeping with him again. I'm trying really hard not to think about it past the...
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Sunday Dec 07, 2003

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This weekend is nice. I had a really fun night last night. I just drank a little with good friends, but had a really great converstion. I was thinking about it all day. I really love those nights. Oh, that and I had lots of really good sex. More than 24 hours later and I'm still in a good mood. *sigh* smile

This is the best...
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Thursday Dec 04, 2003

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So much work, so little sleep. I"m in the middle of three weeks of hell, and sitting here, writing and eating somewhat cold soup is a much more pleasant activity than it would be otherwise. I have to work til 3 this morning, but I had too much caffeine to take a nap. Maybe I'll be able to take one in a few hours.

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mei:
be careful about thinking like that. it's what i did, and it got me in trouble. thinking that maybe what you see in the movies is too good to be true, that all you can hope for is comfort, etc, leads one to stay in something that isn't quite right, for whatever reason.

or maybe, it's the perfectly right way to think. i don't know. i don't know about anything anymore. my advice about relationships has to be great considering my current state. whatever
littledeadkid:
get some sleep!!!
skull skull

Wednesday Dec 03, 2003

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I can be an amazingly horrible person sometimes. For some reason when I am away from ex, I think he is amazing and can't figure out why I am letting him go. And then when i see him, I am reminded of how horrible we can be for each other. And when I can't resolve the two, bad things happen. I say things I wish...
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littledeadkid:
yea that shit super sucks when ur not around that person and all u think about is the good then when u 2 are toghether its all fucked up and u see y ur not together no more so i do feel whut u mean
skull skull
mei:
to be honest, i think that the only way to measure a relationship after its possible termination is someone else. if'n you can find another person in a reasonable amount of time that makes you happy or happier, maybe it wasn't meant to be. if you try, and other people just don't measure up, maybe you found the best fish in the sea.

which is a pain, because that does involve meeting and dating other people, which is often complicated and messy.

oh, and by the way, i am feeling EXACTLY the same things right now. i think it s all about lonliness. when he is there, you are comforted and not-lonely enough to start seeing other parts of life, like how he might not be perfect for you. but when he is gone, the lonliness takes over and all you want is him, here, now, to make you un-lonely. at least that's how it works with me, anyway.

Tuesday Dec 02, 2003

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Class made me cry today. It was the first time that that has happened since I've been in college. I don't know why we're learnimg quatum in a supposedly easy physics class. It's interesting until we have to solve problems. Then I feel the weight of crushing stupidity because I don't understand something that most peole who actually know how to do math don't really...
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Sunday Nov 30, 2003

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I spent the day in bed today. I haven't been sleeping well this weekend, so just brought my comuter to bed and stayed there. And now it is time for sleep. Good night computer land.
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littledeadkid:
sleep is alwasy good!!
skull skull
agentc:
I used to sleep with my laptop after an ex dumped me and moved out. At least a laptop is always warm.
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