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I called the coroner today about Amanda's ( demonbuttercup 's ) toxicology report. It's done but the pathologist still hasn't determined a cause of death. I'm not sure at all why I want to know but I just feel like I need to know. Either way I can play some game of making myself feel guilty for it or better for it but anyone that...
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So at one point while I was doing some work for next week my dog ran away today. It's nice having random little heart attacks. She was gone for several hours in fact I got calls from two different people about her. Turns out she ran away from the first person that found her. She's a great dog but she doesn't do well with freedom,...
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During my week off I have yet to unpack a single box...I rule!

So it's been one month....I'm not sure how I even feel anymore....better and worse all in the same breath. One feeling I do have all the time is that I feel like I can't fully greive....I've just been so busy that I can't sort of get it out of my system and that is really frustrating. I just need a lot of time to sit...
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Probably time for an update but I don't have much to say other than the usual. Still no drummer, work is still super stressful, I'm still struggling witht he death of my best friend, I'm moving at some point either this wekeend or next and I hate moving more than just about anything. About the only good news is that my guitar tone as of...
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I'd just like to thank everyeone for their kind words about the loss of my friend Amanda ( demonbuttercup ). It's been an amazingly hard loss on me. I can't even imagine what normalcy is even like anymore but I guess I'm handling things slightly better. It does help having people to talk to. Some days the hut feels brand new and other days I...
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The world is now a much worse place without you....

About 4 hours ago I came home to find my roommate and the best friend I've ever had dead. Amanda Ellen Bogard died apparently from an accidental overdose of allergy medicine and possibly some sleep aids or some combination. Amanda was 34 years old, far too young to die as well as far too good...
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Not a bad day so far. My band tried out a new drummer than looks quite promising. He's got a very different jazzy/trip-hop sort of style which could actually sound quite cool in a stoner rock/doom context. I like adding people with different sounds and backgrounds to this project, it gives us something unique and cool.

I get home and find one of the best...
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