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Why I Feel So Strongly About Turning Pink & Becoming a Suicide Girl

Besides the fact that I am a very demented minded, chaotically psychotic, angry hippie valued chick; I am a strong believer and fighter in any way I can for the legalization of marijuana as a whole. I have been through the depths of just about all of the heaven & hell in regards to the legalization of this totally NATURAL growing plant/weed. Ive been a cultivator of this fine medicine since the year of 2006 when its life saving benefits pretty much saved my life no shitting you either! See for many, many years I was told I was f*cked from my head to toe basically since I was about18 and started seeing doctors & specialists for anything they could talk me into thinking I might have basicallylol. So anyway to shorten this story; a lot of bad things started happening and mainly due to the fact that I was a walking zombie on 7-9 different pharmaceuticals AND taking each of them at least twice dailyalthough the Xanax (my worst friend of all)I was up to an indescribable amount per day like 3 of them every time I FEEL a attack coming on they would tell me!

So yeah needless to say one night I thought I had enough of my life after a tough death report I had gotten news of and just downed the 1st brand new bottle of Xanax that I just filled. Well next thing I remember was waking up all pissed off in a hospital bed with this horrible bruised and painful belly & front rib cage area pains. This however is when it beganit started to hit me and make sense as I got home and burned down a nice dank jibberpainless & relaxedstared at my hundreds pills & stacked bottles and thought to myself about how long it had been since I havent taken a freaking pill. The answer I never thought about before scared the shit out of me even though I am a pretty demented and f*cked up individual. All those medications did was turn me into an even bigger psychotic, chaos, mess than I already was to begin with!

So I then did a SHIT LOAD of research and reports and eventually got into the politics of it even in a sensenot that I am political in any other thing for that matter; but when it came to this; something I still feel stronger about every year after all the reports and studies I research consistently. I knew this was the true helpful medicine that I really needed with out any negative side effects or unwanted secondary health concerns. In fact after doing much of my research and school reports on the benefits of medicinal marijuana my entire life came back into focus for me for the 1st time in so many years! Now I know my life is to basically be built around and in defense for this plant that truly has so many good qualities about it that we could probably get rid of half the horrible pharmaceuticals today even.

I eventually then began cultivating my own medication saving me hundreds upon thousands of dollars and best of all it was a 100% Natural & NON ADDICTIVE Medicine!!! Not to mention how you go from loving to just simply burn down the sweet cheba on one hand; to then learning how to play god to your babies as they grow on the other hand where from there on you only get more and more connoisseur like and picky about how and what methods you may use to grow your medicine to be the best quality and quantity possible for your medicinal health needs. In all honesty too btwthe entire time you are a caregiver/grower or just simply cultivate your own meds legallyevery crop & harvest is a new learning experience for you to gain that perspective or wisdom needed to keep moving up the ladder of optimum marijuana cultivation 101. lol.

After growing it for myself for a year though I then had to experience the BAD side of cultivation in a NON LEGAL state what so everon top of that I lived in a county that treated it with their own rules & regulations even somehowstill never understood that one. So anyway, long story short thereeven though I plead and cried to take all the blame upon myself knowing my old man already had plenty of MJ violations on his recordthey never let me & we both served similar sentences even though it was my very 1st offense ever tooYep I got jacked royally on this one I know. Lol. I served almost 2 years of bullshit hard core probation where I had to attend & pay lots of $ for rehab classes 3-4 times a week, go to MA online meetings or go to my local NA sourced meetings every day I didnt go to my rehab classes. I also got finger printed and put into the criminal database too! Talk about freaking out at the moment!!! Even though my son was never even there when it happened; I even had to take these super stupid parenting classes as well. Then there is the fact that after I served all my time and was about to ship off to Colorado; they then tell me yeahI can still get my felony dropped down to a misdemeanor; but I have to PAY for that too now!!! On top of the hundreds I pumped out for classes, parole meetings, and drug tests out my *ss already! So there is my Bad Experience with the life of cultivating medicinal MJ NON-Legally.

Now back to the good experience with medicinal MJ and LEGALLY
Since moving here to this wonderful and beautiful state of Colorado; I was able to get medicinally legal with in my 1st month of moving here, eventually got others legal around me, began doing my online activist work for a friends dispensary/care-giving business that they ran online as a group, began cultivating our own medication as each others caregivers legally, plus although we dont like to do this as much as actually help our patients out; but I can even currently make money for my medicine legally as long as my patient is legal as well! Not only that but in Colorado we are able to trade/barter clones, seeds, medication strains/buds, edibles, grow equipment and etc! Did I mention how even if youre a past felon as we all now know I am you will still have no problem what so ever getting legal as long as you have 3-6 months of documented dr notes pertaining to a chronic pain or other health ailment. Thats all I need anywaythe fax to my dr office and the place I went to get legal pulled them up and did all the rest for me! Currently our state has just passed a bill (that I honestly dont see staying to much longer soon enough here do to too many lawsuits against the state itself and other legislatures and etc. in pertaining to breaking the Amendment 20 we have had installed in working order here since 2001 when it actually became Amendment 20 in action) that limits caregivers to 5 patients at a time instead of unlimited nowwhich for me here is ok thoughwith 3 of us in this household as separate caregivers though that is 90 plants total with 45 being in bud stage and 45 being in vegetative stage and still being under the 100 federal radar amountnot that we actually would need to grow that much (90) any time soon yet. That is coming from an ounce a day smoker if you let me too I must addlmao. So, now that have read a little more about why I use the name I do and have learned a little more about why I am so strong and passionate about doing all I can to support and promote MJ Awareness across the US and hopefully by next year (if I get to pay off my felony debt) then out to the European area wherever that leads me as I have heard issues are arising there that need help asap too.

If with all of your help I do turn pink with my 1st set ever that comes out tomorrow; I am already planning on creating some type of MJ consciousness project that will involve as many MJ friendly SGs as I canI plan to travel the US in some way doing this weather its meeting groups of others in cities to do our MJ related activist work or events, or if it with a bunch of other SGs all together providing the truth to everyone we can as we stop and tour areas through out the US. I am an online activist so I can find many or at least a majority of the events we would make showings for too if needed. Hell if needed I would love to be the organizer of this in all honesty even! Lol.

Well, no matter what happens I know deep inside that eventually I will make it as there is no other time than now for all us sexy ladies to come together as 1 full force and do something good for everyone across the Country!

I hope you now have a pretty decent idea of just who I a and what I truly stand for and believe in as I think most true beauty can be seen from the outside; but most real beauty comes from the personality and beliefs of whats on the inside of a soul instead.
Besides thatIm not getting nay younger so help me live my youth while I still have some and yet better yet I will do this for a much real and greater cause.

Muah, Hugs, & all the Legal Nugs to all you kind friends & fans!!!