obliviousfocus

I lied about the updates. This will be the final one for a while and well I guess it ends on a sad note. I'm leaving. For a while at least. I'm tired of a lot of things. I can't seem to get ahead in life. I keep trying but inevitably I do something retarded to smack myself back down. I love everyone here its just that well its not doing it for me any more. I've been thinking things over and my thoughts and life differ very much from things that I used to believe. I come to SG to talk to my friends not look at nude girls. I gave that up a long time back. I realized I'm just not that sexual a being and other than artistic merit the pictures just don't do it for me. I need to be saving my money and not wasting it. I have several things I do need and i'm not saving for them. I feel lost. I don't feel like myself. I don't feel like Charles. I feel like I look at some one that just is a shadow. I hate sounding like some emo whiner but thats how it feels. I just need a break from it all. Maybe once i sort things out i'll come back. I've shut down every other site i'm on etc so its just a matter of taking the plunge.

I wish you all the best. Don't remove me hahaha. I will be back.


When I can do this again