nymph

I'm lost.

Not that I can't find my way home, because here I am, sitting in my living room, on the computer I've been anxious about turning on lately.

I'm lost in the sense that I'm not sure where I'm going; or even where I WANT to be going in life.

Things are so chaotic and confusing lately, it seems. As much as I love my life, my friends and the fun I am having, I just feel so lost right now.

I'll be returning to school in a couple weeks for the first time in what feels like forever.
This may be my last year, and I don't know how to feel. Right now the only feeling I have is anxiety.

My boyfriend of a year, David, and I broke up last week, just one day before our first anniversary.
We spent this past weekend in Montreal together for the tattoo convention. We had been planning this trip for months and we agreed not to fight about recent events and squabbles and to just have a good time.
We both got tattooed and enjoyed ourselves.
We've decided to talk about everything tomorrow and see where we are.

I got drugged at a bar last week, and it was terrifying.
Renna and MattA saved me.

I've recently had the dosage raised with my medication to help with my anxiety and compulsive obsessions.

I have been avoiding my computer lately because I get overwhelmed with everything so easily. Messages need to be responded to, photoshoots need to be booked, textbooks need to be ordered and school schedules need to be organized.

I have sufficiently saved absolutely no money this year.

I hate staying in because it makes me feel so lazy and unproductive, but it's when I go out that things don't get done.

I feel like I'm missiong in action.

I feel so lost.

Thank God for my incredible friends... I don't know what I'd do without them.