nykonnlc

ho hum. man what a day.

So this girl, who i have pretty much known since i was a year old, Well we for alll these years have always had this very strong bond, but always we would get so close but never ended up together. we have lost touch at times but I have always seemed to come back at the right moments when she needed me the most But since i came back from school she has been trying to get in touch with me and I finally talked to her tonight for many hours. It was very strange I dunno but we just seemed to finally see that we are meant for each other, she just left her boyfriend(who i never liked, he treated her like shit and she did so much for him) Things were very akward though we haven't seen each other for some time, but we have always cared about each other in this very deep way, even if we were never together. But i saw her tonight and she looked more beautiful than I ever remember(and she said she was scrubby) There was this awkwardness between us though, we both know how we feel but it has been such a long road I guess we just don't know how to start it.

I have a lot of things to work out too, I care about her so much and she is so beautiful, she also has a kid, and I am going to grad school in the fall and have to finish that out and I don't want to hurt anyone, but I have had my relationships and no one has made me feel the way she does. She talks about wanting to move out to California as well and start a new life when I go out there. I dunno i really think i could spend my life with her, but I still have things to get on track and I don't want to hurt anyone, This may have been a lot of ramble i just left her place and still very loopy so it may not even make sense.,

but i think i fell in love tonight with someone i already knew i loved