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Okay. So I guess I'll really do an update. Yeah, crazy sex, woo. Flip back for more info. However, so much more has happened since I left here. So. Let's try to start from the beginning.

I've had about a million jobs in the last few months. Substitute teacher was only the beginning. I continued lifeguarding until December and I'm trying to get back into it. Just for a little extra money. Easy job for more than decent pay. We'll just cross our fingers that that one comes together. I've had a few other crappy random jobs that I'm trying to forever block out of my memory. I attempted to be in sales for about a week and...it's not so much that I don't think I had the talent to do it because, if anything, I can manipulate people...but on the other hand, I don't have the heart to do it. I just can't. So that gig didn't last long.

I'm now fairly happy working in an office at a resort. It's not backbreaking, I enjoy my coworkers, and it's completely tolerable. It's not exactly preferable but I'm still working on it. I've taken the beginning Psychology course and I'm eager to sign up again next semester. I'm finally excited about school, I'm not hating dealing with homework and classes. I didn't have a blemish-free semester, but it was far better and I saw a lot of potential. I'm applying to a low-residency graduate program in Vermont which is kind of scary. It's open ended in that I can pretty much move where ever I want to and still go to school. I only have to be in Vermont one week each semester to meet with my advisor and things like that. But the rest of the time, I have to be implimenting my studies in the real world. Leading classes, holding private sessions, things like that. I'm nervous about that part. Really really nervous. I'm afraid I don't have the will power to do what I have to do. I guess we'll just have to see.

I had my first real brush with the law in January. I got busted for trespassing. Pretty tragic. But it's all over with and because I paid my court fees, I escaped having anything put on my record. Apparently they were really trying to throw the book at us, too. Oh well. It could have been so much worse.

I feel like I've had to grow up a lot recently. I've had some time to become more confident in myself and that's matured me in a lot of ways. Our household had to deal with a major tragedy at the end of May and I think facing that took away some former debilitating innocence. Certainly innocence is good to some degree and, for the most part, I am still that little girl. But having to be so completely selfless to help a friend took some of the rose tint out of my glasses. I'm grateful for everything that I have these days. I am luckier in my relationships than anyone I know. I truly have the greatest friends in the world right now.