"SUICIDE NOTE"
It's been so long since the light has shown through the window of my life. For three arduous years I've had dreams rise and fall through tears, hope and fears, I've slowly died, inside. Time has passed right through me, as day after day the light turns to night, and now I have lost the willingness to fight. If you could see my now, you wouldn't find me chasing another dream, just to mask my true feelings. But don't get me wrong, I am healing. You crossed a line that no one can forgive; at least someone who gives a shit!!!
This is not a suicide note. But it's also not a joke.
Giving up on her meant that my universe collapsed; perhaps.
I can't keep co-signing every relapse. My heart must be believing the facts.
Call it waking up. Because the voice in my head won't shut up. And being alone is fearful, but losing my true love would be dreadful.
A 3 year old without a voice, that isn't capable of having a choice. Needs me to protect him to exist. I don't want him to be on a list; of statistics.
By D.R.T.