nursejill

I have done a lot of thinking about The Cop and I the last few days. I think we have officially gone from girlfriends to just friends. I love hanging out with her but I know in my heart she is not the one. I am not really sad or anything. I think I have known for quite a while that this was more of a friendship with sex involved than a real relationship.
Also I have decided SG has really changed my life. Ever since I "came out" I have really opened up sexually. I don't mean that in a "sleep with every girl I see" kind of way. I just mean I have allowed myself to be sexual and enjoy sex. Unfortunaly my shyness usually means that is solo exploration. Haha.
I was just reading a post in Gay Girls Only about what sex toys you own. I have always felt my sex drive was way higher than my friends. It has made me feel umm, weird. Like I wasn't "normal". Which doesn't help with my shyness But, since joining SG, I get to see that other women like sex a lot also. I know that may sounds silly. But, it has really made me feel better about myself and that I am not such a freak.