Haha--new profile yet again. I'm a nerd.
Anyways so this last week has put me over the edge at work. The stress level has been so high that I just burned out. On Friday I left in the middle of the day--told my boss that I needed to take the rest of the day off to take care of some things. I've never felt like I was unable to deal with things before but truely this week has shown me that alas--I am human and I get run the fuck down just like everyone else.
Other than that I had realized last night that people are assholes and that I need to treat people with the same level of respect that they treat me--even if that means being a bitch to someone which I have a really hard time with. I have this inablitiy to see the bad in people and I really believe that if given a chance that all people are good and kind and all of that other bullshit. But really--it's time to grow up now and realize that this world is full of fucked up people who don't deserve respect or love or admiration--they deserve nothing from me. It's hard for me to think these things but I've been fucking burnt so many times by so many fucking people I have to toughen up or get used to getting the emotional crap kicked out of me--something that I cannot do. I know I've said this shit before so friends keep me to it. We should start a bitch-o-meter--"kristin how many people were deserving of your bitchiness today?" "um--three" "and how many did you actually throw something at?" "um-none." "Okay drop and give me twenty fuck you's."
Oh bejezzus--I'm a dork.
So I haven't really mentioned it here but I started hitting the gym really hard about four weeks ago. I've stuck with it and I'm actually seeing some changes in myself which is really awesome considering I've had major issues with my body in the past and I'm finally dealing with them in a positive way. It's been good for me and I've been loving the fact that I can feel the difference when I actually start to workout. My body is responding really well to everything and it's exciting--yay! Oh and a bad habit update--I haven't smoked in over a month now, I gave up all soda including diet, I no longer eat red meat, and I haven't drank alcohol in a really, really long time. I know I'm going to get shit from some of you about all this but really--they haven't really been concious decisions--just progressions for me which makes it feel really natural.
Well--I'm going to make the rounds and say hello to all of you--I've missed my circle of internet friends.
xoxo
Anyways so this last week has put me over the edge at work. The stress level has been so high that I just burned out. On Friday I left in the middle of the day--told my boss that I needed to take the rest of the day off to take care of some things. I've never felt like I was unable to deal with things before but truely this week has shown me that alas--I am human and I get run the fuck down just like everyone else.
Other than that I had realized last night that people are assholes and that I need to treat people with the same level of respect that they treat me--even if that means being a bitch to someone which I have a really hard time with. I have this inablitiy to see the bad in people and I really believe that if given a chance that all people are good and kind and all of that other bullshit. But really--it's time to grow up now and realize that this world is full of fucked up people who don't deserve respect or love or admiration--they deserve nothing from me. It's hard for me to think these things but I've been fucking burnt so many times by so many fucking people I have to toughen up or get used to getting the emotional crap kicked out of me--something that I cannot do. I know I've said this shit before so friends keep me to it. We should start a bitch-o-meter--"kristin how many people were deserving of your bitchiness today?" "um--three" "and how many did you actually throw something at?" "um-none." "Okay drop and give me twenty fuck you's."
Oh bejezzus--I'm a dork.
So I haven't really mentioned it here but I started hitting the gym really hard about four weeks ago. I've stuck with it and I'm actually seeing some changes in myself which is really awesome considering I've had major issues with my body in the past and I'm finally dealing with them in a positive way. It's been good for me and I've been loving the fact that I can feel the difference when I actually start to workout. My body is responding really well to everything and it's exciting--yay! Oh and a bad habit update--I haven't smoked in over a month now, I gave up all soda including diet, I no longer eat red meat, and I haven't drank alcohol in a really, really long time. I know I'm going to get shit from some of you about all this but really--they haven't really been concious decisions--just progressions for me which makes it feel really natural.
Well--I'm going to make the rounds and say hello to all of you--I've missed my circle of internet friends.
xoxo
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polly:
im so glad youre taking care of yourself. so glad.
the_mad_monk:
Dorks are cool, it's everyone else who's lame 