Today I had a nightmare, where I was picking flying ants from the flesh in my arm.
Today I lost my voice and became a silent observer with my coworkers, and felt I had no place.
Today I was at work for 12 hours.
Today I felt very alone when there was nobody to talk to about any of it.
Today was not a good...
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Today I lost my voice and became a silent observer with my coworkers, and felt I had no place.
Today I was at work for 12 hours.
Today I felt very alone when there was nobody to talk to about any of it.
Today was not a good...
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The veil has been lifted.
Today was as close to a good day as I"ve had for a long time.
Can't say why, but it was just a good day.
And right now I feel really good for some reason.
I Just said good three times, that means I'm definately fucked.
Maybe it's because I'm back to my old ways, I smoke a lot, blog...
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Today was as close to a good day as I"ve had for a long time.
Can't say why, but it was just a good day.
And right now I feel really good for some reason.
I Just said good three times, that means I'm definately fucked.
Maybe it's because I'm back to my old ways, I smoke a lot, blog...
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A compilation of my favorite NIN lyrics.
"the me that you know is now made up of wires
and even when i'm right with you i'm so far away"
"Why do you get all the Love in the world?"
"hiding backwards inside of me i feel so unafraid"
"and even when i'm right with you i'm so far away"
|perfect little dream the kind that...
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"the me that you know is now made up of wires
and even when i'm right with you i'm so far away"
"Why do you get all the Love in the world?"
"hiding backwards inside of me i feel so unafraid"
"and even when i'm right with you i'm so far away"
|perfect little dream the kind that...
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woa, trent reznor is in his 40's, he's the same age as my boss... wtf happened...
bwahahahhaha
Maybe there's hope yet.
bwahahahhaha
Maybe there's hope yet.
I think I came to another self realization today.
I've never had strong bonds to friends, I'm very quick to turn by back and say fuck you or fuck off.
Back when I was a kid I had two friends in my neighborhood. One of my friends decided he didn't want to hang out with me, so the other one wouldn't either. This was the...
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I've never had strong bonds to friends, I'm very quick to turn by back and say fuck you or fuck off.
Back when I was a kid I had two friends in my neighborhood. One of my friends decided he didn't want to hang out with me, so the other one wouldn't either. This was the...
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I'm back to being tired again.
Tired of it all... I've stopped caring about everything again.
Gonnna numb myself for a few months again like I did...
Just when I thought I was out of the horrific groove I've managed to crawl back into it again, so much for any sort of smidgen of hope of light in my life.
I'm Mr. fuck you all...
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Tired of it all... I've stopped caring about everything again.
Gonnna numb myself for a few months again like I did...
Just when I thought I was out of the horrific groove I've managed to crawl back into it again, so much for any sort of smidgen of hope of light in my life.
I'm Mr. fuck you all...
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All the stupid posturing, boundaries people setup, rules, games...
I watch old movies where people do the same thing, you know what I think...
In 50 years it won't matter, you'll all be dead.
I watch old movies where people do the same thing, you know what I think...
In 50 years it won't matter, you'll all be dead.
I'm back, I'm fairly normal, and I wanna drink damnit, even if it does lower my immune system and I get sick.
Of everything I've ever gotten a look is what I charish the most.
The first look I got that I enjoyed was one of disdain and open resentment.
The second look I got was one of wonder and curiosity and pity all in...
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Of everything I've ever gotten a look is what I charish the most.
The first look I got that I enjoyed was one of disdain and open resentment.
The second look I got was one of wonder and curiosity and pity all in...
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I'm so tired of this fucking railroad barreling through my life again.
why do I do it to myself, make myself hurt like this, I must enjoy the pain.
the apetals of my mind of unfolding make the transition much easier into aht eabiss
I hate, this, so here I go again.
touch me, make me feel like a thousand bullets are licking at my...
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why do I do it to myself, make myself hurt like this, I must enjoy the pain.
the apetals of my mind of unfolding make the transition much easier into aht eabiss
I hate, this, so here I go again.
touch me, make me feel like a thousand bullets are licking at my...
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I feel comfortably numb.