I am a wraith.
I have been for years. I touch lives lightly and disappear completely when I sense that it's time to move on. I hold myself aloof even from people that I like simply to be able to ghost away when the time comes.
I wasn't always like this. I used to engage with people and not hold myself at a safe remove. People with a pop-psychology bent would guess that I'd been hurt or misused at some point and am now hiding vulnerability. That just isn't true. I saw the whirling chaos that often accompanies me infect other people's lives, and I couldn't countenance it, so I removed people to a safe distance.
Even given the distance, my abilities with perspective, and my dour countenance, I find that I still like most people. They may mystify me sometimes, and they make me sad more than I care to think about. But I like them.
When the time comes, I always ghost away, though.
I have been for years. I touch lives lightly and disappear completely when I sense that it's time to move on. I hold myself aloof even from people that I like simply to be able to ghost away when the time comes.
I wasn't always like this. I used to engage with people and not hold myself at a safe remove. People with a pop-psychology bent would guess that I'd been hurt or misused at some point and am now hiding vulnerability. That just isn't true. I saw the whirling chaos that often accompanies me infect other people's lives, and I couldn't countenance it, so I removed people to a safe distance.
Even given the distance, my abilities with perspective, and my dour countenance, I find that I still like most people. They may mystify me sometimes, and they make me sad more than I care to think about. But I like them.
When the time comes, I always ghost away, though.
But maybe you're just good at hiding things.