BLAH! so much to write about! sorry I kept you all waiting 
not that anyone was hardcore excited to read my blogs anyway 
Things have not been going well for me lately. I feel like I am enduring some test that the gods are giving me...whatever gods there may be.
My bf's unemployment cut off then said they were going to reinstate it (which we were counting on), Then my dad gives me a little extra money because he knows I am suffering. SO I WAS SO EXCITED that I had a little extra spending cash to go out and have fun for once, and now unemployment say that my bf has no money left in his unemployment fund thing. meaning all the money my dad gave me has to go into rent and utilities since my bf can't pay his side of the bills and such.
Don't get me wrong I don't mind helping him. We worked together to get here, and he has supported me most of the way with what he had, it just was such bad timing...I really needed to go out and eat at a restaurant or go see a movie. *le sigh*
Now we don't have enough to support us through the next 2 months. His credit card bill is due and we are already getting collectors calling from the last incident... On top of that I am sick and am having issues with school.
Actually I am doing really well in school, straight As all the way, but I came to SCAD because I wanted to get the skills it takes to get a job in the video game industry, not to get a degree. They told me to become a Grad student because I could jump right into my major, but right now I am taking 2 classes that have nothing to do with what I want to do. Yes designing games is fun and I understand that I need to get some of the basics down before I start doing other things but they TOLD ME that I wouldn't have to take classes like this. With just these 2 classes I am already in $6K in debt and now they want me to take more crap classes!!! WTF...I am not willing to go in debt for something I DON'T CARE ABOUT. I was willing for knowledge that I need but not this crap. I am really debating leaving school and just getting my portfolio together and applying to places...even if its a crap job I can work from the ground up....Does anyone need a 3D modeler? I am a really fast learner...or I can draw...bah...I don't know...I don't feel like my portfolio is good enough right now let alone I don't have a website...(anyone know of a good HTML website builder?)
I just feel so lost...though if you know me at all I don't give up easily! I will be swinging to the end! RAWR!
I only ask if you have any good info about video game jobs or a good website builder please tell me.
Now that the depressing stuff is over...lets try and make today a little more bright!
lets list all the good things I have going in my life (I like to do this when I get depressed)
1. I have a family that loves me and wants to support me (even if I hate asking them for anything)
2. I have a loving BF who gives me lotion massages when I am stressed and does the dishes when I am to busy to do them (he cooks I do dishes) he also tells me how beautiful I am at the exact times I need him to say it.
3. 4 more weeks until this semester is over and I get to go home to my parents house! meaning I will be in the Philly area and am hoping to get an SG get together going with the help of RoadieShow I can't wait to meet other people on SG!
4. I am going to a FREAKING roller derby tomorrow! it is $10 to get in but I consider it a school field trip since my new group for class is going to base our board game off of it hehehe I am so excited! I have never been to one!
5. I am healthy...well for the most part...I need to start exercising
6. I have some amazing friends that want to help, even when they don't need to...(you know who you are
)
Ahhhhh...I feel a little better now...PICTURE TIME!
HALF NAKEE TIME
and at school boobies
okay lovies...enough venting for one day! I hope everyone is doing well!
~Nuka <3
Oh also I was thinking about going on Model Mayhem to make some extra cash...I know I will be careful...or I might start making my kitty hats again...not sure though...any suggestions on making some quick cash?
not that anyone was hardcore excited to read my blogs anyway Things have not been going well for me lately. I feel like I am enduring some test that the gods are giving me...whatever gods there may be.
My bf's unemployment cut off then said they were going to reinstate it (which we were counting on), Then my dad gives me a little extra money because he knows I am suffering. SO I WAS SO EXCITED that I had a little extra spending cash to go out and have fun for once, and now unemployment say that my bf has no money left in his unemployment fund thing. meaning all the money my dad gave me has to go into rent and utilities since my bf can't pay his side of the bills and such.
Don't get me wrong I don't mind helping him. We worked together to get here, and he has supported me most of the way with what he had, it just was such bad timing...I really needed to go out and eat at a restaurant or go see a movie. *le sigh*Now we don't have enough to support us through the next 2 months. His credit card bill is due and we are already getting collectors calling from the last incident...
On top of that I am sick and am having issues with school.Actually I am doing really well in school, straight As all the way, but I came to SCAD because I wanted to get the skills it takes to get a job in the video game industry, not to get a degree. They told me to become a Grad student because I could jump right into my major, but right now I am taking 2 classes that have nothing to do with what I want to do. Yes designing games is fun and I understand that I need to get some of the basics down before I start doing other things but they TOLD ME that I wouldn't have to take classes like this. With just these 2 classes I am already in $6K in debt and now they want me to take more crap classes!!! WTF...I am not willing to go in debt for something I DON'T CARE ABOUT. I was willing for knowledge that I need but not this crap. I am really debating leaving school and just getting my portfolio together and applying to places...even if its a crap job I can work from the ground up....Does anyone need a 3D modeler? I am a really fast learner...or I can draw...bah...I don't know...I don't feel like my portfolio is good enough right now let alone I don't have a website...(anyone know of a good HTML website builder?)
I just feel so lost...though if you know me at all I don't give up easily! I will be swinging to the end! RAWR!
I only ask if you have any good info about video game jobs or a good website builder please tell me. Now that the depressing stuff is over...lets try and make today a little more bright!
lets list all the good things I have going in my life (I like to do this when I get depressed)
1. I have a family that loves me and wants to support me (even if I hate asking them for anything)
2. I have a loving BF who gives me lotion massages when I am stressed and does the dishes when I am to busy to do them (he cooks I do dishes) he also tells me how beautiful I am at the exact times I need him to say it.
3. 4 more weeks until this semester is over and I get to go home to my parents house! meaning I will be in the Philly area and am hoping to get an SG get together going with the help of RoadieShow I can't wait to meet other people on SG!
4. I am going to a FREAKING roller derby tomorrow! it is $10 to get in but I consider it a school field trip since my new group for class is going to base our board game off of it
hehehe I am so excited! I have never been to one! 5. I am healthy...well for the most part...I need to start exercising
6. I have some amazing friends that want to help, even when they don't need to...(you know who you are
)Ahhhhh...I feel a little better now...PICTURE TIME!
HALF NAKEE TIME
and at school boobies
okay lovies...enough venting for one day! I hope everyone is doing well!
~Nuka <3
Oh also I was thinking about going on Model Mayhem to make some extra cash...I know I will be careful...or I might start making my kitty hats again...not sure though...any suggestions on making some quick cash?
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xligh:
Thatnks for the comment love. Hope all is well with you.
bigbadwolf:
Damn! there goes the mystery